Fire

I am the doubt in the trust
I am the might in the must
I am the lie in the truth
I am the shadow in the proof
I am the lock in the door
I am the punishment in the law
I am the loss in the gain
I am the pleasure in the pain
I am the chains in the mind
I am the flaw in the design
I am the dirt in the pure
I am the fear in the secure
I am the grudge in the pardon
I am the serpent in the garden
I am the panic in the plan
I am the suffering of man

You are the diamond in the dust
You are the love in the lust
You are the grace in the hate
You are the choice in the fate
You are the hope in the mess
You are the strength in the stress
You are the freedom in the restriction
You are the release from the addiction
You are the thought in the self
You are the worth in the wealth
You are the fight in the fear
You are the laughter in the tears
You are the clear in the far
You are the science in the stars
You are the music in the soul
You are the fire in the cold

Last Christmas

This one goes out to the universe
It’s been a long time coming
This one goes out to the few of us
Who have learned to stop running

My room was warm, the door was shut
Inside the storms the cords were cut
And we set sail across the sea
For lands unveiled, unknown to me
Downstairs the party, the festive lights
The church bells started to ring at night

Of faith departed, faith still pending
Faith in heart and faith in spending
Faith in body, faith on hold
Faith in God and faith in gold

And in my twisted mind
they all just laughed at me
Last Christmas I was a tragedy
You rescued me
This one goes out to the timeless
Love we all have for our brothers
This one goes out to the scientist
And what he wants us to discover

And in my cell the strip lights shone
And in my hell they list my faults
They tell me I’m not fit for my life
They stab and try to twist the knife
Downstairs the party of pretence
It’s getting hard to get a sense

Of faith in science, faith in soul
Faith in liars and faith untold
Faith in health faith in the above
Faith in wealth and faith in love

And in my twisted mind
they all just laughed at me
Last Christmas I was a tragedy
You rescued me

My doctor says I need to rest
To take my gaze out of this mess
Mother says I need a holiday
To leave my troubles far away
The vicar tells me I need Christ
Everyone’s got their own advice
And everyone makes their little speeches
Everyone testifies, everyone preaches

Of faith in computers and faith in machines
Faith in consumerism, faith in our dreams
Faith in the cynical, faith in the mind
Faith in the miracles, faith in the signs
Faith in psychology, faith in behaviour
Faith in biology, faith in a saviour
Faith in science, faith in the above
Faith in liars and faith in love

Downstairs the party, precious words
Of faith imparted to the world
And I fell on my last resource
A faith in an eternal source

And in my twisted mind it just laughed at me
Last Christmas it rescued me

Good Isn't Good Enough

Thinking of a river on a photograph
Somewhere I’ll never go again
Thinking of spending time away from you
Things were going too well

There’s always something wrong
There’s always someone

Thinking of life in a different city
Somewhere with no history
Thinking of life in someone else’s head
This one don’t feel right to me

There’s always something wrong
There’s always someone

So maybe I should go
Where no one knows me
Just throw myself in
And maybe I should get
Away from this place
Just change back my name

Cos there’s always something wrong
There’s always someone

I just want to feel the way you do
Somewhere I’ll never go again
And if I can’t change the past I’ll erase as much as I can
Because good isn’t good enough now

There’s always something wrong
There’s always someone

So maybe I should go
Where no one knows me
Just throw myself in
And maybe I should get
Away from this place
Just change back my name
And maybe I should go
Where no one knows me
Just throw myself in
And maybe I should get
Away from this place
Just change back my name

Cos there’s always something wrong
There’s always someone

Feed The Thrill

Feed the thrill
Soak up the gain
Take the pill
Pills to kill the pain
They make you ill
They drive you insane
They break your will
They grant you the blame

You've been gone for so long, I've forgotten what you looked like

Feed the thrill
Feeding the gun crime
Shoot to kill
And fire at the first sign
Scale the hill
Walk while they climb
And keeping still
Find a place to hide

You've been gone for so long, I've forgotten what you looked like
You've been gone for so long, I've forgotten what you feel like

All I Have

Wrap me up in a safety net

And all I do is laugh
Because I don't have the words to say
You are all I have
Sometimes it feels that way

A highway ends at a cliff edge
It's the only way out of the city
So we'll stay in the slow lane
We're not after your pity

And all I do is laugh
Because I don't have the words to say
You are all I have
Sometimes it feels that way

Nervous in front of the cameras
Becoming one of her bracelets
To remind her of precious moments
Where your eyes meet, your pulse starts racing

And all I do is laugh
Because I don't have the words to say
You are all I have
Sometimes it feels that way

Well you could be a sniper on a rooftop
Tranquilising my enemies
All the things you do for me
All the times you are there for me

And all I do is make you laugh
Because I don't have the words to say
You are all I have
Sometimes it feels that way

Happiness Is Mine

I wish I knew what you think of me
I wish I knew what you'd say
I wish I knew how I could change this
I wish I could run away

It's 2 am, I'm almost home
Rain is coming down in sheets
And I'm freezing cold
And probably the last thing on your mind

But I will turn around, I will come back and find you
I will stay around as long as I have to
And if you're feeling down I won't leave your side
Because your happiness is mine

I wish I knew how to break out
Of this stupid fantasy
I wish I knew what I should say to you
To make you fall in love with me

My friend I haven't seen you in years
You're overshadowed by these dangerous tears
Though they're not for me, nothing to do with me

But I will turn around, I will come back and find you
I will stay around as long as I have to
And if you're feeling down I won't leave your side
Because your happiness is mine

I've been going out every night
And only thinking of you

But I will turn around, I will come back and find you
I will stay around as long as you want me to
I will calm you down when you feel like you can't cope with it all
I'd hit the ground without a second thought to break your fall
And if you're feeling down I won't leave your side
Because your happiness is mine

Our Last Few Hours

Take your fire for yourselves
We don’t want to be warm
Keep your shelter for yourselves
We’re quite happy in the storm

Don’t you dare take this moment away from me

Because these are our last few hours
That we have together
And we don’t want anyone else in our way
These are our last few seconds
That we have together
And we don’t have anything else left to say

Don’t speak, just fall asleep with me

Warm glow hiding under the rain
Lose my senses to the dark
Don’t know if this will happen again
Soft beats of a lullaby heart

But don’t you dare take this moment away from me

Because these are our last few hours
That we have together
And we don’t want anyone else in our way
These are our last few seconds
That we have together
And we don’t have anything else left to say

Don’t speak, just fall asleep with me

You

In my lonely escape room
I’m mixing drinks with words
Holed up under a full moon
Trying to forget the world
I fell in love and I tried to
Fight the feeling away
Told myself I don’t need you
And promised never to say

All I want to be with
All I want to see is
All I want to be with
All I want to see is

You

Every second since I left
In every second of calm
Every second in silence
My head is still in your arms

And all I’m thinking of is
All I really want is
All I’m thinking of is
All I really want is

You

All I want to be with
All I want to see is
All I think I need is
All I want to feel is

You

Don't Fight The Tide

Creeping up on you like nightfall
Time is running out
How long until you click your fingers
And bring yourself down

Talk yourself into staying a little longer
Show your mind a magic trick
The world you inhabit six months ago
You could barely imagine it

Is it worth blowing your mind
For one last second of euphoria?
And I’ve heard a thousand times
And I’ve had a thousand one last times

Juliet you don’t remember be
Rereading every single word you wrote
Juliet you never noticed me
Clinging to the trellis as you shut the window

It’s surrounding you like water
And you find you don’t wanna swim
Because though you drown you’ve everything you wanted
To spend your last seconds with

Give you any excuse to hold her
It only takes a glance
You don’t need no drugs to fly
You don’t need no music too dance

But is it worth blowing your mind
For one last second of euphoria?
And I’ve heard a thousand times
And I’ve had a thousand one last times

Juliet you don’t remember be
Rereading every single word you wrote
Juliet you never noticed me
Clinging to the trellis as you shut the window

Stop Me!

Between the cars, behind the bars,
Beneath the stars, inside your arms,
These days I’m losing track of what I want

Your moving hands, your far-fetched plans,
Your childish dance, your careless stance,
These days I’m losing track of what I want

One day I learned I was always telling you lies
And in return you always knew just how to make me cry

I’m pushing you as hard as I can
So I can see what you’ve got in defence
I am pushing you til you’ve got nothing left
I’m pushing you til you can’t help yourself

There’s no one I’d rather be beside
But it don’t feel right I think I’m frightened that
I’m losing the thing I really want

One day I’ll burn because I can’t keep waltzing through life
One day you’ll learn that you always knew just how to make me cry

I’m pushing you as hard as I can
So I can see what you’ve got in defence
I am pushing you til you’ve got nothing left
I’m pushing you til you can’t help yourself

So I said ooh ooh ooh someone stop me!

You’re still my problem that I try to hide from
And I can’t decide on who I take the side of
These days I can’t ever decide on who I want

So I said ooh ooh ooh someone stop me!

Ask Me

We walk until we are soaking
She talks and everything’s ok
They stop the river flowing
They start the moonshine glowing
They hate the way you dress up
I love it when you mess up
They drink until they are stupid
You know that we can’t refuse it

He’s the one you check your emails for
You listen at the door
You delve a little deeper each time
He’s the one you feel yourself falling for
You delve a little deeper each time
You find yourselves together on the floor, on the floor

We sit beside a lightbulb
We reignite the cycle
Compliments like rainfall
Absence is so painful
Morning grass is glistening
Sing like nobody’s listening
He finds it hard to let go
And she don’t really wanna go home

He’s the one you check your emails for
You listen at the door
You delve a little deeper each time
He’s the one you feel yourself falling for
You delve a little deeper each time
You find yourselves together on the floor, on the floor

I’m in a fantasy cave and I don’t want to come inside
We’re in the most beautiful rain and we don’t want to come inside

He’s the one you check your emails for
You listen at the door
You delve a little deeper each time
He’s the one you feel yourself falling for
You delve a little deeper each time
You find yourselves together on the floor, on the floor

He’s the one, you feel it in your soul
Uh oh uh oh uh oh
He’s the one, you feel it in your soul
Uh oh uh oh uh oh

Mars And Back

You found Saturn's rings out in the town
Took you months to make eye contact and now
You can't stop stargazing
With the sun in your eyes
You can't fall in love with it
You can't get enough of it, no

This thing will take you to Mars and back every 25 seconds
It don't need no fuel or batteries it runs on personal obsessional

Call me down! - Calm me down! - Before I go too far!
Call me down! - Calm me down! - Pull me out of the stars!
I'll find my way by torchlightAnd then I'm coming for you

That building was empty when I was last there
Now there's starlight walls and asteroids on the stairs
It's like a bed-time fairy tale
It's just the two of us
In a different universe

These sugar cubes will take your head and leave it out in orbit
Take me to your planet will you take me without warning

Call me down! - Calm me down! - Before I go too far!
Call me down! - Calm me down! - Pull me out of the stars!
I'll find my way by torchlight
And then I'm coming for youI'm coming for you

The Subway Incident

Brainwashed trees seeming at ease and at home
Breathless grass bruised and braced for the drone
Brilliant lights with their communist eyes
Bristling toxins befriending the skies
Genuine smiles flickering into the dark
Joyless angels standing guard at the park
Jaded eyesight mistaken for art
Jittery twisted up thoughts pulled apart
Infamous scrawlings by insensitive minds
Inferior boredom intimidating the blind
Innocence humiliated and immobilised
Imprisoned the superior love jeopardised
Pacified panthers asleep on the lawn
Paralysed monsters slain by the dawn
Vitamin answers were shifted and torn
Supplement solutions washed up on the shore
The daughters of summer stood up hypnotised
Mechanical beasts still anaesthetised
Strapped in their beds they were mesmerised
Their freedom retracted and monopolised
It was a cloudless scene but the skies didn’t care
Where prosperous poisons polluted the air
And a million opinions would tussle and tear
While the sacred observers slept unaware
Startled and stirring pretending to see
Dispensing their superficial sympathy
The late night girls stood seductively
Luring the businessmen clutching their keys
Exhilarated youths staggered out on to the streets
Exiled minds with no face and no feet
Exploitative criminals lurked observing the herd
Exposing the weak and suppressing the word
Devoted extremists were haunting their homes
Infiltrating the pipes, the wires and the bones
Cultivating hate from concrete seeds
Scrambling over spikes while their spirits bleed
Calling down clouds of chaos to earth
Summoning storms of corruption to birth
Towering gargoyles loomed threateningly
Striking their silhouettes indefinitely
And all of a sudden the children had been misled
Found they’d been mistreated, mistrusted, mistaken for dead
And they spotted Charlotte stumbling alone
Dazed and dilated making her way back home
And one of them starts to shout down the mile
Baring his teeth with a venomous smile
Charlotte focuses ahead and quickens her pace
Calculating the distance back to her place
A gang of lost souls feeding on taunting the weak
A pack of hyenas haunting the streets
And they chase after Charlotte and they laugh at her cries
As Charlotte flees on with tears in her eyes
Breaking through pain barriers, her heartbeat thumping
Praying to no one, adrenaline pumping
But run as she does the shouts get clearer
And she can hear their footsteps getting nearer and nearer
And the predators sense blood, spurred on by her fear
She screams but there’s no one around her to hear
Tearing down streets, panicked and scared
She comes to a subway and scrambles down the stairs
They come thudding down behind her, she tries her best to run
But Charlotte just no longer has the strength to carry on
The hunters grab her shoulders and they throw her to the ground
Charlotte tries to free herself, screaming out loud
But pinned against the concrete her neck can feel a knife
And they tell her to kiss goodbye to her freedom and her life
Charlotte shuts her eyes, sees vipers flickering their tongues
Nocturnal demons squeezing the air from her lungs
And then a concerned voice from someone she can’t see
And a hand on her arm snaps her out of a dream
A man was walking back home late at night
He walked down a subway and in the orange light
He found a girl having a fit at the bottom the stairs
Hallucinating killers and screaming at thin air
He ran down the steps and trying to stay calm
He called for an ambulance and touched her on the arm
And Charlotte woke up gasping and panting from the chase
Frozen from the shock tears streaming down her face
And she waited with the man for the ambulance to arrive
Her knees and elbows bleeding and panic in her eyes
The paramedics rushed down the steps to where she lay
And carried her up spluttering that she needs to get away.

Good Intentions

We stay up late and talk about nothing
We've found everything that's wrong with the world
And we're motivated at the very last second
We're of no use to anyone who wants anything getting done

But it'll be alright in the end I've got lots of time to stop and pretend
I'm heading for where I wanted to go and I'm not in as deep as someone else I know
She's up to her neck in the things she neglected the things she has wrecked
All the things to correct and sometimes it protects me from my own

My problems just go away

But it'll be alright in the end I've got lots of time to stop and pretend
I'm heading for where I intended to go and I'm not in as deep as someone else I know
She's up to her neck in the things she neglected the things she has wrecked
All the things to correct and sometimes it protects me from my own

Every cloud has a silver lining somewhere inside but I can't seem to find it
I need you to help me out of this crisis I'm sorry I never took your advice
But I'm doing my best to get out of this mess but I can't take the stress of this
Work without rest and I'll fail it unless you make it go away

Just

Just says his prayers and falls asleep
Must gets inspired by the TV
Only has a face that launched a thousand missiles into space
Lonely gets replaced by pure envy

Just can't look how I want to look

Just says he needs to go to bed
Must gets a song stuck in his head
Only goes to leave but finds a final trick still up his sleeve
Lonely thinks of life beyond the thread

Just can't look how I want to look and I
Just can't feel how I want to feel

Just feels his conscience getting light
Must drops his morals from a height
Only's in a comfort zone and hiding from the outside world
Lonely knows he's written off his life

So blame it on the government
Blame it on yourself
Blame it on the worst thing in your life if that helps

"Nothing I ever do seems to go right"
"Shaken up I can't ever get to sleep"
"In the mirror my face just looks too white"
"I believe other people perceive me as a freak"
"My friends don't ever seem to miss me as much"
"Don't bother I only ever want to stay in"
"Because I could never look and just not touch"
"I find it so hard to forgive"

Just can't look how I want to look

"Depressed I'm insecure and unimpressed"
"And then I push the boat out until I'm lost"
"Until I got all this bullshit off my chest"
"Crossed out the lines I never meant to cross"
"I don't know how to live without my addictions"
"I'm not getting better just using up time"
"I'm a self obsessed self fulfilling prediction"
"Is it really worth my while"

Just can't look how I want to look and I
Just can't feel how I want to feel and I
Just can't see things how others see them and I
Just can't be who I want to be

She Can't Say No

I remember a time when things came naturally to me
Now I just humour you and your sympathy
In reality you don’t see

There’s another girl at the bar
Laughing and forgetting her life so far

Because she just can’t say no
She just can’t say no

Well I’ve been out on a ledge
And things look different from up here
And I don’t see a down side
But I want to get off, I’ve seen enough

Because she hates this place
The thumping bass and lights in her face

But she just can’t say no
She just can’t say no

Someone’s shown her a shadow
Someone’s shown her a door
Someone’s trying to sell her
Happiness in liquid form

She’s seen a shadow
And she’s wrapped it round her tight
And she feels like a criminal
Because she’s found a friend to help her through the night

Cut

I follow in the sandal prints that she left in the dirt
Replay the moments and they lead me to this place
She wrote a postcard and she left it somewhere here
In the mind of its finder now she'll never be erased

And she was never one to walk away from a fight
She was never one to say goodbye
But I guess she thinks nothing could be worse than this
And I guess she thinks nothing could hurt more than this
You'll be alright
You are the reason that I'm still alive

She used words that she cut from magazines
She took a marker pen and crossed out people's eyes
She found tranquility on a day just like these
Leaving nothing but a message and her disguise

And she was never one to just turn away with a lie
She was never one to pretend that everything will be alright
But I guess she thinks nothing could be worse than this
And I guess she thinks nothing could hurt more than this
You'll be alright
You are the reason that I'm still alive

And she was never one to walk away from a fight
She was never one to say goodbye
But I guess she thinks nothing could be worse than this
And I guess she thinks nothing could hurt more than this
You'll be alright
You are the reason that I'm still alive

I have no photographs or evidence she was ever here
But I found drawings and I know they were by her
She made a mark upon her wrist to warn me off
And all these things that still exist do so without her

Broken

She’s waking up, she’s been asleep all these years
Lost in a delusion she is caught in the confusion
Now she’s confronting all of her fears
And she’s a beautiful girl but she’ll never know it
She’s a compulsive controller and it’s taking its toll on her
Though she’s trying so hard not to show it
Cos she wants it all or nothing

She said if I don’t think that I could get better
Then I don’t want to think at all

And I wonder how much more of this you can take
I wonder how much longer I can stay awake

I don’t remember going to bed last night
I’m hysterical God help you’ll need a miracle
I’m not cut out for this life
And she’s a beautiful girl but she’ll never know it

She said if I don’t think that I could be better
Then I don’t want to think at all

And I wonder how much more of this you can take
I wonder how much longer I can stay awake

I’m not moving on

She said everyday they tell me to concentrate
Everyday I have to fight it away
Well maybe I don’t really want it to go away
Because it’s all that’s left now that I recognise in me
So what if I should just die?
Rehabilitation’s killing me anyway
And I don’t want to be free
I just want you to save me

I wonder
Yeah

Breaking News

I came down the stairs and heard TV laughter
As I put my headphones on and left the house
It was cold outside as I lost my forever after
And walked the journey home staring at the ground

No one understands you
And no one knows what’s wrong
No one can help you
Because no one knows where you’re coming from

All the stars were blocked behind the city glow
People still shouted and the clocks never stopped
The speed of sound couldn’t distract me from my zone
And now I feel like I’ve been trapped dragged then dropped

No one understands you
And no one knows what’s wrong
No one can help you
Because no one knows where you’re coming from

I was stone cold sober but I was stumbling like a drunk
I was stunned by the news
I never saw myself sinking just found that I’d sunk
And I got home to more TV laughter

No one understands you
And no one knows what’s wrong
No one can help you
Because no one knows where you’re coming from

You’re probably wondering why I’ve brought you here
You’re all my little secrets and I’m so sorry now

Eye Contact

She’s with another girl
Of all the times I’ve said to her
I think this one’s gonna be the last
I’m gonna break her heart
We meet in the afternoon
We hardly speak and she barely moves
I’m gonna make her never forget this moment
The way she tore my friend apart

And I feel Charlotte all over me
And she says whatever she wants to me
And you’re so beautiful you just don’t know

She was words and now she lives
Too many moments I can’t just forgive
They wear plastic shirts and feathered curtains
And I don’t trust one word from anyone
So make her never forget this moment
I don’t believe one word from anyone

Cos I feel Charlotte all over me
And she says whatever she wants to me
And you’re so beautiful you just don’t know
Yeah I feel Charlotte all over me
And she says whatever she wants to me
And you’re so beautiful

I feel Charlotte all over me
And she says whatever she wants to me
And you’re so beautiful

She’s with another girl

A Girl With A Crush

It’s 26 hours to Christmas, I’m dying of thirst
Feeling like a demon, finally dispersed
Because I’m not going back to that place with the others
There I’ve found every hiding place and still been discovered

Charlotte’s diary is a scrapbook of fragments like
“I think they assume I did it”
“‘We should make more time for each other’, it’s what she always says”

“But I’ve been lost in this boy”
“And until now life’s just been toys
That we’ve moved around, played and destroyed”
“And I’m only feeling now I can’t think”
“I’m frightened, blind and I need to see
If I’m to feel, and I can only see ten feet in front of me”

Cos I could never go back if things stay the same
But if I get through them these times might change
A boy with an addiction, a girl with a crush
A boy who only ever thinks of himself
I could never see them again

Silver slips from round the necks in the waiting room
Water drips from the ceiling with the sweat
And Ben holds his hands over one eye
Jamie sips from polystyrene tasting regret

And she says to him…

The Man Who Doesn't Laugh

I’m trigger happy with my patience
Taking sedatives to stop the shaking
Priorities are changing daily
She’s indifferent to the head she’s breaking

He’s marrying the girl I can’t stop
Marrying the girl I can’t stop
Marrying the girl I can’t stop staring at

This man doesn’t laugh but he talks
Like a billboard with a logic complex
Crashes like a spirit in an avalanche
Lock him up in sound-proof perspex

Because he’s marrying the girl I can’t stop
Marrying the girl I can’t stop
Marrying the girl I can’t stop staring at
She glows in the dark

She’s hiding something behind those sunglasses
Shut out the world behind her stellar eyes
Her arrival coincides with his departure
Boarded up her face is galvanised

She doesn’t speak to them much these days
She no longer considers them friends
You’ll only ever see her with her hat and sunglasses on
They make her look twenty again

He’s marrying the girl
He’s marrying the girl
He’s marrying the girl

This song I sing for Charlotte’s friend
She looks even better now I think back
I’ve been conditioned eye contact’s a limit
She makes my head swim and my life retract

White Noise

We’ve run out of ideas for you sir
A clean cut escalates into a blur
So what for the sake of our unity
They won’t stop they’ll take an opportunity
Top cats no longer in control
Mr man digs his way out of the hole
Face facts people just aren’t satisfied with their lives

We’ll dance in the streets with the crowds
We’ll liven the day with the sounds
Of violence and tears and sense of achievement
Sirens and shattering glass on the pavement
Because people just won’t stand for this
We want to be where the action is
White noise rushing through my veins
White boys and their monkey games

How could anyone be so cruel
Don’t look at me your fear is my fuel
I’ll pace up and down in my cage
This place a chance to vent all the rage
Still trying to reach me on the phone
Stop crying it’s not going to bring me home
I’m not alone a thousand of us greater than fire or stone

The Very Last Song

Bats flicker in the moonlight Water strokes the shoreline The wind flutters the trees The sky melts through the freeze Your eyes are hypnotised Your mind slowly unwinds A distant clock tower chimes The tide slips out of time And the stars fly The rocks cradling your head The sands recording your tread So many satellites crawling So much starlight falling The black water’s surface gleams And the sound of drowning screams
And the glower of deafening dreams Overpowered by twinkling streams And the stars fly And the relentless sense of blood Becomes isolated by the flood The street-light glow disappears And the darkness hides your fears/tears Your clouded eyesight clears The calm waves soothe your ears And the silence fills your mind Sparks fall from the sky And the stars fly

Emma

You can call but she won’t answer She won’t listen to you It’s not me, it’s you You can mirror her in every view She will never turn to you It’s not me, believe me Hello stranger, what’s your name? And aren’t you sick of these stupid games? She said “I don’t know what to think anymore… If I only had your words to say I think you’re right, I think I’m ok On my own, but now I’m not so sure…” And every night you can comfort her She will never come for you She’ll see right through you You can call all you want But she’s got better things to do Like being in a different room Hello stranger, what’s your name? And aren’t you sick of these stupid games? She said “I don’t know what to think anymore… If I only had your words to say I think I’m alright, I think I’m ok On my own, but now I’m not so sure…” All the people waiting on their own In the bars pretending to be on their phones All posing for praise they’ll never even hear Gangs of girls hiding themselves with their smoke Drunken lads telling racist jokes All laughing at the people they really fear And Emma and I pass like ghosts Through the flirting games, the subtle boasts, Their jealous eyes, their aggressive disguise, The assertive shouts, the sniggering doubts, And yet they talk so loud but they dissolve in the crowd With their stupid beliefs and their blatant relief When everybody agrees with their stupid decrees And their stupid delusions, and their total confusion, Their local trends, their so-called friends, Anything to conform, anything to offend, Criticise anything you won’t comprehend And when their evening finally comes to an end They come stumbling past us on their way back And when they hear me and Emma, they stop in their tracks Our psiren song takes and controls them A feeling comes, for a moment it holds them

September Nights

The train leaves in an hour, There’s just enough time for one last goodbye, I sit with you’re memory under the streetlights I feel so confident, so tired, so missing something, so everyone in one I have no reason to step away from these people Feel so tired, so inspired, got to learn to stay inside myself I drink myself into somebody else who I don’t know and I can’t control Slowly getting used to it Where were you when I needed you most You were hiding inside can you hear me my friend Wait for the smoke to clear and listen to how stupid I sound, I know I should go home with you But I think I should stay, because it’s a change from the wait From the days of waiting for the world to come to me with an invitation Well who are you? Someone worth talking to? To save me from something I’m not sure I can cope with Because your best friend has a life to lead and your boyfriend has a love to leave It came from nowhere and the cold began to fade As the evening glows on she never stopped listening, He never stopped asking if I was alright Well you are beautiful people I wish I could be like I wish I could be with for the rest of my life Talk me through these September nights When you look at me like no one else could I remember what happiness feels like and lonely I would be Without one person in the world Who looks into a crowd of people and finds me

The Werewolf

Falling but not going anywhere, Still rooted in the harsh, cold, Cruel, uncaring ground, Rock-hard beneath me. Falling, drowning but there's enough oxygen to support a pack of werewolves. Waves undulating within my mind, Tearing away the wall encasing of my intelligence. I don't want to do this! The room around me melts and spins, Receding and bursting into a kaleidoscope Of threatening, eyebright colours, Too much! Too saturated! Obligingly, they disappear To reveal the jewel-spangled Sky, in which my cruel destiny Is written by stars Bright as searing candle-flame. Chain metal and precious stones encircling me, Squirming and re-forming To create a cold, hard collar Mostly hidden by thickening fur Just as my skeleton Painfully readjusts. Raging, intense screams turn to screeches Splitting my ears’ enhanced sensitivity, Flattening against my stripped head. Green-gold reflective eyes, devoid Of any revealing emotion Gaze seductively, pensively, Into the oil-painted puddle Slopping on the edge of a rough asphalt road Growing steadily with every hammering raindrop Seeing water-streaked, darkened fur bristling, Ears perk, tail drops, hackles rise, A long, lonely cat-call rises into the forgotten night. The moon, cool, calm, serene, Steady luminescence Gazes down upon a drenched Creature of the night, Hissing and spitting At fate.

(Based on the poem Cousin To The Werewolf by Leah G. (Age: 16))

The Stars In The Summer Sky

It’s been a long time since that day, She was sending no vibes I’ve been cold but I can’t complain I’ve been wasting her time She talks so unconventionally And likes to think she likes the same kind of stuff She’s thoughtless, but not intentionally A starless night is not enough A prison cell with walls of diagrams Capturing spirals of sparks Erasing her conscience into landscape paintings Converting her soul into charts Sometimes the world seems so still Sometimes you just can’t stop running Forever chasing a light Forever fleeing the night And never knowing what’s coming See your life as a graph A straight line away from your home See your life from the path See the dark woods you wish you had known

An afternoon to kill Sitting on a window sill Making yourself feel ill Crying in the sunshine Can’t stop but you keep trying You’ve got to make it this time The swimming pool, the gate, the square Don’t see your eyes, see your hair Only notice what you wear But it’s hard to hide without them there Another generation don’t care where you stare You’re so scared Love is just a friend you kiss
To focus on your emptiness Til there’s nothing left to notice

Forget it, it doesn’t matter The summer was spent alone Following a road into the mountains, Staying there hibernating In a cave secluded from the sun On the other side of the valley, On a blazing hillside, On razor sharp blades of grass, You built walls to protect yourselves Hypnotised, lost in each other So many people here are such bright stars And this year’s love is a shade She’s the only place your eyes can rest Cos so many people here are such bright starlight And she shields your eyes So many people here are such bright starlight She covers your eyes

The Waterfall

Well we are alone for a moment
Asleep in our hours of dejection
She circles above
And I see her in your reflection

She is really here with me
And this river's dried to a stream
Through the noise of all my suffering
I won't hear her as she screams

I just feel I should say something
Are you still breathing out there?
Talk to me...

I miss her like I wished you
Would never leave me here
I will hide cos I won't hurt you
Let the music dry my tears

I just feel I should say something
Are you still breathing out there?
Oh, talk to me my leader, my reason
Listen to me you're love
I just feel I should say something
Are you still breathing out there?
Oh, talk to me my leader, my reason
Listen to me you're love
I just feel I should say something
Talk to me
Listen to me you're love

Losing Your Mind

Is that all I am to you, just a great friend?
I guess you never looked at me that way
It's cool, you think of me more as a brother
Deep down you're thinking what I want you to say

You're all a bunch of...

You're lucky you have a reason to feel sad and lonely all the time
Cos otherwise you'd just be down about nothing and feeling you were losing your mind

I guess I'm love with someone too close for comfort
But don't tell anyone cos it's a secret
I'm singing for you, are you really listening?
Got a crush and it's so hard to keep it to myself

You're all a bunch of idiot's

She spells F.L.A.G. and he doesn't know what she does to me
She spells F.L.A.G. and he doesn't know what she does to me
She'll get no such sympathy from me
You're lucky you have a reason to feel sad and lonely all the time
Cos otherwise you'd just be down about nothing and feeling you were losing your mind
She spells F.L.A.G. and he doesn't know what she does to me
She'll get no such sympathy from me

Is No More

The devil's little superman laughing in the sky
Why would you be anywhere but there if you knew that you could fly?
How do you cope without your daily fix of touch?
They told each other they loved one another just a little too much
Somewhere so suddenly we both lost the track
If there was someone to forgive me maybe they'd take me back

But I've never felt pain like this before
She is no more

They don't want to hear, they call me pretentious
So tell me again about your little adventures
As if they give you a right to stay silent for days
And draw attention to yourself with your faithless gaze
Since when could I know what such rejection does to you?
My little mind could never comprehend what you've been through

But I've never felt pain like this before
She is no more
We are no more
She was never really there at all

Home

And I will never doubt you
Although I live without you
And you will live without me
Knowing everything about me

I never thought I'd leave with a smile
As I stood on the roof, smashing the tiles
Even though I have to leave in an hour
There's nowhere I'd rather be right now

And the question: if we were both rejects
Would you be content being perfect?
Given the chance, become one of them?
And leave me alone and broken again?

And I know the answer
Don't need you to say
Because the world has started again today

And so to an end
The best days that you give me
And only because
You were always with me
And I know that it sounds stupid
But it all sounds so stupid
And I’m stupid enough to say:
The world has started again today
And I feel so HIGH TODAY

Valentine

Throw away your sin, you do me wrong
No safety in numbers where I don't belong
A beautiful mind with bright blue eyes
Look a little closer, where true beauty lies

Take me away, take me away, take me away

I don't know you any more
Now the spark comes down, it buzzes round your shoulders
I don't know you any more

Throw away your peace, no one cares any more
Well, you can throw away me and all of the things that you thought for

And take me away, take me away

I don't know you any more
Now the spark comes down, it buzzes round your shoulders
I don't know you any more

Another grey sunset blows sky high
What would your brother say if he saw you tonight?
Another sun-stained migrane, wondering why
What would your lover say if she saw you tonight?

She'd take you away, she'd take you away, take you away

I don't know you any more
Now the sun comes down and buzzes round your shoulders
I don't know you any more

Darling love, love of mine
Darling love is in your mind

Shake The Walls

At 7 o'clock I hit the door, stepped out into the gale
At 3 o'clock I hit the floor, slipped into a fairy-tale
I dream a dream of frozen fires
Hiding inside, melting the wires
To sleep and waiting

At 6am I wander outside and listen to the trees
In their simple peace and wisdom they will speak to me through the breeze
The sun splatters down through their dying leaves
With minds to survive and lives to deceive
They are contemplating

Jesus watches from the clouds above
These autumn thoughts are falling in and out of love
I wake up on the ground, curse the life I've found
And turn the volume up, shake the walls with the sound

At 10 o'clock she kissed you and she left you by the gate
At 3am she thought of you as she lay in bed awake
Cos she can't sleep without you holding her hand
Holding the boy she's bound to in her head
She's fading

Jesus watches from the clouds above
These autumn thoughts are falling in and out of love
I wake up on the ground, curse the life I've found
And turn the volume up, shake the walls with the sound
Yeah, I wake up on the ground, curse the life I've found
And shake the walls, shake the walls with the sound

Summer Rain

Goodbye to the summer rain
It'll be a lonely holiday
Goodbye summer strain
I'll be a long way away the next time I think if you
And I say "can we talk for a while?"
In the dark I hear you smile
And you reply "from now until the end of time
I'll think of you"

And we can say that one day I was part of something special, we were part of something beautiful
I'm a liar, I'm a cheat, I'm a fire, I'm a thief
But it's not my fault, it never really seemed to matter to me
And as long as we have each other, that's all I really need

Goodbye summer trust
May you live on in all of us
Goodbye summer rain
I hope you never see me again
Soaked and in so much pain

And we can say that one day I was part of something special, we were part of something beautiful
I'm a liar, I'm a cheat, I'm a fire, I'm a thief
But it's not my fault, it never really seemed to matter to me
And as long as we have each other, that's all I really need

If there was a time and there was a place
And there's a love and it's a race
I cannot wait to be the last one there

A Holiday On Planet U

You whisper to the night we need to be alone
Trapped in this reality, I can't go home
She is a ghost forming out of the air
Haunting your eyes like this golden flare
Lighting up the dark, you are the light
And I'm not afraid to sleep with you tonight
Why do you ask when you know we're not alright?
Each second I grow weaker as I refuse to fight

I gave myself a challenge, you don't deserve me and she doesn't deserve you
One day she'd unnerve you, my endless devotion is slowing but never going

This is the last time I stay here for you
She gets stronger every time I hide
And I only come out at night
I'm hanging by a thread, I'm staying in bed
You're singing in my head of the late happiness we shared
It's only time

She was a figment
She appeared out of my mind
And you always seemed too perfect
To be hurt by anything but time
So I watch and want and learn how to keep you and her
Keep her away, just walk away
We're stumbling forward
To the end of her stay

I gave myself a challenge, you don't deserve me and she don't deserve you
One day she'd unnerve you, my endless devotion is slowing but never going

This is the last time I stay here for you
She gets stronger every time I hide
And I only come out at night
I'm hanging by a thread, I'm staying in bed
You're singing in my head of the late happiness we shared
It's only time

I watched her disappear into the sky
I held my head, you had tears in your eyes
We took a holiday on Planet U

This is the last time I stay for you
This is the last time I stay for you
I'm hanging by a thread, I'm staying in bed
You're singing in my head of the happiness we shared
It's only time

Thinking About You

You put your head back on the grass
Create the clouds and watch them pass
Stand for an instant, stuck in a trance
And listen to your conscience destroy your romance

You're falling in love, the skies are clear
You're falling on hard times confronting your fear
You're taken by nothing and nothing is bliss
You're lost and staring into an abyss

I'm finding it hard to cope with the loss
I'm clinging onto everything I come across
Your ceiling was a starfield where I stopped caring
Leave the world, you leave me staring

And you know this is all in your imagination
You will fall from this height, come back from this low
And find this was nothing you didn't already know
And you are caught in a heatwave in elevation
You will fade from this scene, come crawling back to me
And find this was nothing you didn't already know
And you know this is all in your imagination
You will fall from this height, spring back from this low
And find this was nothing we didn't already know
And you a caught in a heatwave in elevation
I will fade into the blue, come crawling back to you
I'm fine and this was no more than I already knew

Trust

So what's there to stop me from jumping?
The drivers of the trains apologising for delays and they charge you like they've taken you to the moon and back
And you hate it when all the strangers stare at you
But you hate it even more when they make you feel ignored and they pass you like you're just another one of them
The animals roam two by two
Seems like everyone is flirting but your breakup is still hurting and you only want to talk to someone you've never met
And your friends won't leave you alone
They're only friends when it suits but it's pointless to refute them because you need them to distract you from your cell
Taxi after taxi passes by
Another service station, another steel creation on the travellator motorway that hauls us along
And the days you spend inside the television
Another advert for a loan, another stolen mobile phone and it all just drives you to sleep

And it turns out as you were wrong but never told anyone so they all still think that you were right
And you're living in denial but it'll last you for a while at least long enough to make it through the night
Another comedy distraction, a complete over-reaction, there must be something more out there
As you're trudging through the rain to catch another train the monotony stops you being scared
Of the dark and broken streets, they're rendered obsolete by the scent of similarity
And you're sick of all the bars and blinded by the stars that fade into reality
This life is just a game, you play your part and pass the blame while everything is growing so dark
But you are glowing white because you can't block the light and it's showing up every scar
Another night out on the town and your head is spinning round and the predators all come out hunting
And I know I can't compete so I silently retreat so what's there to stop me from jumping?

She never finishes a conversation if she can't forsee herself in a relationship with him

From Above

We're following the rules of attraction say you can't have interaction with the sane guys
Cos that's the way you play the game though it's never been the same since the lane died
She is covered in the stains of her last victims' brains like an A bomb
She got a soul made of granite, left her conscience on the planet that she came from

You need a friend, I need girl
So let's pretend that I could tell you everything in the world

God knows you've got to obey your thirst and I know every diamond is cursed
Nothing's real, go on and touch it if you feel, you'll disappear and never come out
Is that what all this noise is about? Cos you're starting, starting to heal...

He takes her back in his mind and he can't find the time for anyone else
He takes a last at love an angel from above he brought it on himself
He touches her everywhere, insulted by the air that stops for me
She's just a black-eyed gremlin laughing and trembling on my property

But you need a friend, I need girl
So let's pretend that I could tell you everything in the world

God knows you've got to obey your thirst and I know every diamond is cursed
Nothing's real, go on and touch it if you feel, you'll disappear and never come out
Is that what all this noise is about? Cos you're starting, starting to heal...

An angel fell from above and landed through my windscreen
She is the fallen one, she is the chosen one within me

God knows you've got to obey your thirst and I know every diamond is cursed
Nothing's real, go on and touch it if you feel, you'll disappear and never come out
Is that what all this noise is about? Cos you're starting, starting to heal...
Yeah, God knows I've got to obey my thirst and I know every diamond is cursed
Nothing's real, go on and touch it if you feel, I'll disappear, I'll never come out
Cos that's what all this noise is about, cos I'm starting, starting to heal...