Lyrics

Tomorrows

2011-10-14T01:35:00.000-07:00

Brace yourself for pain
Embrace the love, the loss, the gain
Well it's all part of it
Do you want to be part of it?
And teach yourself restraint
Well you are truly screwed either way
So just calm down now
Be a part of it

The days they tumble slowly over each other
We don't know where the roads end up

But I don't want to argue anymore
Just do what you want when you slam the door
I'm far too tired to try to make you see
Just do what you want for the reasons you believe

And all our yesterdays they light
The dusty, dusty way
To just one certainty
The day it murders me
And peace will calm you down
They say the second that you drown
You just calm down, now
Be a part of it

We don't know where the roads end up
We just know that they end

But I don't want to argue anymore
Just do what you want when you slam the door
I'm far too tired to try to make you see
Just do what you want for the reasons you believe
For the reasons you believe
For the reasons you believe
For the reasons you believe
For the reasons you believe
I don't want to argue anymore
Just do what you want

Running From Tornadoes

2011-08-24T02:13:00.000-07:00

Behind this guise, an unendable time spent clinging
As years unwind, those electrical vines keep stinging
All this time spent running from tornadoes
Be my bubble in the storm
If only 'til the dawn

Lost at sea, destined permanently to run from
Stupid dreams, how the panic-field screams like thunder
All of this time spent running from tornadoes
Be my bubble in the storm
If only 'til the dawn

Another day comes to an end
And I can feel a calm descend

You remind me that there's light left in me
Light left in me
Light left in me
Light left in me

All these ghosts just step aside
I know (oh oh oh oh oh)
All this hurt and pain subsides
I know (oh oh oh oh oh)

The Lake

2011-08-07T02:03:00.000-07:00

Drove out to the lake
Set my car alight
Burned it like a chain
Reduced it to a frame

If you look hard enough
There are always clues
And people determined
Hungry and bloodthirsty

You can weigh the body down
But the body will remain
Weighed double on your mind
At the bottom of the lake

Hide

2011-06-24T09:49:00.000-07:00

This is a nightmare
What can I do?

Craving the pain
It's all I deserve
The physical pain
It's all I am worth

All you want
When you can't hide
All you want
Is to say goodbye

All you want

When you can't hide

All you want

Is to say goodbye

Ghosting

2011-05-09T08:26:00.000-07:00

In this hidden cave a man is sheltering from the flood
Pressed against his magic box of lights and lights and lights and dripping blood
His eyes have long been bleeding from the brightness of the rays
It burns his skin and hurts him as he tries and tries and tries to look away

Living in fear
Living in fear

In the back of every taxi
In every cash-point queue
Round the bricks of every corner
The real thing could pounce on you
In the arms of every stranger
In the distance of each view
On the slabs of every pavement
The real thing could pounce on you

Salt-Like-Space

2011-04-14T01:20:00.000-07:00

Out, on the edge
On the sawtooth of the machine
Plastic in the river
Where lifeless bodies dream
In a chambre of concrete
Lights dart across the wall
Salt like space
Makes corpses of us all
Dead from the day
Of fulfilling the conditions
And terms of a contract
Come drown your inhibitions
In the sea, go blank
And collapse into free flight
Now you don't feel a thing
You can be something else tonight

Cave Music

2011-03-05T03:08:00.000-08:00

Under the mountains
If there is a cave
That is where
I want to be

Because no one could dig
A deep enough grave
To bury
My fear

Cortisol

2011-02-27T15:59:00.000-08:00

You feel the ladders hit the walls
The people rushing to the gate
A full invasion force
I hope you're feeling quick today

The flickering embers of a sleeping fire
The shivers descending down a grid of wires
The master pretending like he has not heard
The tectonic bending of his island world

Power to agititate the tide
You are punching at the waves
The waves of meteoric size
Here comes the rage

The flickering embers of a sleeping fire

The shivers descending down a grid of wires

The master pretending like he has not heard

The tectonic bending of his island world

The flickering static of an old TV

The merciless tactics of the stones and trees

The deafening racket of a storm at sea

The naturally tragic grip on sanity

Fluctuations, fluctuations

All crew to their battle stations

No respite from desperate fighting

Light from darkest saturation

Must have patience, must have patience

Trust despite the situations

Just to spite the cortisol

Hormones burning up the soul

Keep calm, carry on, nothing's going on

Stop and starting, broken hearted

Blanking out those loves departed

Sanctuary from the dark

Without a light it's impossible to find

And a broken mind just breaks up further

With no one to turn to, only matter of time

Before it turns to cold-blooded murder

Stumbling around a cave and flirting with a quiet grave

Fumbling for words to say, for ways of phrasing hopeless days

In the cave rely on touch, can't feel a lot but I'll say this much

It's fucking freezing so show me a reason

Show me a reason to put up with the teasing

To get up in the morning, to stay up 'til the evening

Nothing comes easy but it shouldn't keep bleeding

Editorial

2011-02-26T19:07:00.000-08:00

I've got a voice
I know which way gravity points
I see faults
This is how humanity disappoints

Don't come plugging your poison to me

Aggressive little bastard
With misinformed opinions
You don't know the difference
Between illness and its symptoms

Don't come plugging your poison to me

Squelettes

2011-02-26T18:59:00.000-08:00

A round of laughter
Comes from the cupboard
The door's wide open

Welcome to my bedroom
Des squelletes hang from their necks

I snapped them and stuffed them into the cupboard
Cuz I was sick of their endless laughter
Now I'm so tired I don't even bother
To lock the door or even to shut it
Now all I hear is laughter and chatter
So I break their necks and spit in their eyeholes
Smash in their teeth so now who is smiling
But it's too late, what's done is done and can't be changed
I...

The sound of fingernails on a wooden floor
Scraping at my temples

Fault

2011-02-24T09:03:00.000-08:00

It's a funny thing to distrust the dawn
It's a strange way to live your life
When all light is breakable
And faith viewed through such bruised eyes

I think I can breathe again

Turning points are of such substance
As mythical creatures from stories
Jumping's not the same as flying
Birds have no concept of falling

I think I can breathe again

Tunnelling Of Years

2011-02-24T09:00:00.000-08:00

I've been watching
Pieces fall from
A broken wall

Stone cracks
In timelapse
Coming down it's
Rubble now

In time you'll learn to fear
The tunnelling of years
Have gone by
Too tired now to run
And deadened down succumb
To dull life

No such thing as
Solid ground
Time can wear it out
No such thing as
Endless love
Time can rip it up

In time you'll learn to fear

The tunnelling of years

Have gone by

Too tired now to run

And deadened down succumb

To dull life

The days they just devour
No mercy in the hours
Have gone by
Whichever way life steers
The tunnelling of years
Is your guide

The Lightning Fork

2011-02-02T08:28:00.000-08:00

The buildings never change

The faces never stay

The sun will always be

But weather's mystery

It frightens me

Off goes my imagination

Behind my blank eyes

No mortal shock compares

With dreams of this size

They're firing like an advert

And fuelled by escape

Sometimes I step too far through

Cathy's picture frame

We're silt in a river that never dries

They're trying to lure me down

A path from the origin of a lightning fork

Why would I choose?

And why aren't I blinded by it?

Why would I choose?

And why aren't I blinded by it?

The buildings never change

The faces never stay

The sun will always be

But weather's mystery

It frightens me

We're silt in a river that never dries

They're trying to lure me down

A path from the origin of a lightning fork

Why would I choose?

And why aren't I blinded by it?

Why should I choose?

And why aren't I blinded by it?

Why would I choose?

And why aren't I blinded by it?

They're trying to lure me down

They're trying to lure me

Perspex

2011-01-20T11:31:00.001-08:00

Welcome back to the world

It feels like plastic

Like a virtual design

Or a bubble in space-time

It doesn't feel real

Of course Helen carried on

While I was in my coma

She's got a different job

And her life has moved along

It doesn't feel real

Something's numbed the cortex

It doesn't know it's awake

It thinks this is a dream

On a cloudy TV screen

It doesn't feel real

The moment that he leaves

She forgets him instantly

And she curls up back inside

Her sad screensaver mind

It doesn't feel real

It's like he never went away

But how much has survived

He's waiting for the moment

When he wakes up from his coma

It doesn't feel real

Wars, games, pain, love

I am asleep

Hope, family, romance, targets

I am asleep

Curves And Corners (The Next Generation)

2010-12-07T15:37:00.001-08:00

I'm hooked to a drip

I can't help but sip

The dirty nutrients

They feed my deviance

One thing I know

I fear the window

Darling you gave me hope

When I could barely stand

But now I just can't cope

Get out while you can

Cuz this scene will explode

And the fragments will never land

Up in space they'll float

With the house and family we planned

Our world goes up in smoke

No one understands

How an entity just broke

I crushed it with my own 2 hands

I love you

But I could not be that man

I love you

But I will never be that man

Kate

2010-11-28T16:30:00.000-08:00

Water on terminals

Frightened animals

Organs and cuticles

Insects are cannibals

Get the fuck away from me

It's a disease

A disease

Monkey politics

Swamps the scientist

Had enough of this

Transduce onto the wrist

Get the fuck away from me

It's a disease

A disease

So man the switches at the tracks

Check their actions, check their facts

It's a disease

A disease

Black wires are bearing

Tempers are flaring

Errors are glaring

Patience is wearing

It's a disease

A disease

Static

2010-11-22T07:08:00.000-08:00

Time is not my friend

So says the ghost in your corridor

Roaming aimlessly for the sake of its existence

Around the rooms of ancient lives

Life passes by

Outside of time

The ghost is sitting in your living room

Stuck with eternity to contemplate the past

Time is a predator and promises are its prey

Life passes by

My Basement Game

2010-11-19T11:18:00.000-08:00

I have a basement game

A fantasy I brought to life

In a rustic house with no neighbours

And you are going to play

You see, I'm a misfit

And the world has crippled me

'Til the sick and twisted side

Is the only portal of escape

So put your memories aside

Lay your connections to rest

For you are now no longer

A matter of consequence

You are just an object

Squeezing thrills down my spine

A revenge for all the torture

And bleeding in my mind

Break my rules and join

The frozen severed head

Reverberate the cellar

But the pity in me is dead

Each time I turn the vice

Your screaming gives me life

Because this is my domain

And you're my basement game

All The King's Horses

2010-11-11T15:57:00.000-08:00

My monster has run out of words

He can smell blood in all directions

His claws dig deep dark trenches

His big white teeth are smiling at me

My monster loves this princess

She waits among far off lands

He lives in swamps and smiles

My monster and me close our eyes

All the kings horses and all the king's men

Fucked about a bit, gave up and went home

Looking back now I can see why you'd be scared of me

All my mistakes hung like Christmas lights from the ceiling

Adieu

2010-09-05T14:58:00.000-07:00

How best to show

This blast could blow

At any time

I tick, I wind

So what surprise

I am selfish with my time

I love yet still

I make you doubt

Just like I al-

ways joke about

So what surprise

I have fed you laughs and lies

What am I doing here?

This is where normal people come

To socialise, have fun

So what am I doing here?

I should be locked up out the way

So I can't wreck your day

Adieu

A tendency

To say the right

Thing with un-

intentional spite

Can be forgiven

For a while

But when you wake

I'll rake your eyes

So what surprise

We are living in denial

What am I doing here?

This is where normal people come

To socialise, have fun

So what am I doing here?

I should be locked up out the way

So I can't wreck your day

Adieu

Here Comes The Orchestra

2010-08-18T10:03:00.000-07:00

Power to the people in their state of weakness

Please forgive this world of cheaters

Born with artillery and taught these cheap tricks

Mothers hand them down with their feathers and treats

It's a treasure 'til they're severed and the severed grow weary

Put a blade to their vein and bleed out theories

Pleasure it was measured as they wrestled free

Knowing life is never as the kid perceives

Kids'll just shout and kids'll just dream

Too big for their doubts, too big to concede

They grow up and leave, their predictions'll creak

Under the pressure of reality

The boy is on the road to a terrible collision

The boy is on the run from a medical condition

The boy is in the loop of a spherical decision

And whichever way he chooses he will end up in submission

Whichever way he loses, so why take action?

Just find a distraction, anything that will

Take his mind off this enveloping darkness

Gotta be ruthless, you gotta be heartless

He locks himself inside of his bedroom

He won't be coming out any time soon

When a tree falls and nobody hears it

You know it's safe to go disappearing

Turn up the tunes, get lost or get moving

Take out the blade for sake of just proving

This is no joke there should not be music

It's not easy to get that through to me

Treading on a wire, strings are swelling in my mind

Now they're spreading to my eyes, violins they leave me blind

Going schizophrenic aren't you hearing what I hear?

The line between pretend and real has disappeared

At some point the lid is gonna blow off

Then it's time for the star to show his skills off

He'll show his true colours, he'll take the mask off

And the mothers will be screaming for the others they've lost

When the damn breaks there'll be no restraint

There'll be no escape, no one will be saved

And the doctor I once went to with this complaint

Will be named in the newspapers the next day

Watch your heartbeat it's a daydream, come and see

What does it mean, how could they be possibly?

Which is which me, did you just speak, was it me?

It's a daydream but it seemed real, could've been

So we must be seeing same things differently

This is nuts we cannot stay here, I agree

But it's just me on my own here in a room

Don't know who I think I have been talking to

I hear the sounds of doom impending

Morals bending, hate descending

Some actions are beyond defending

But some traumas go was past mending

And this story has no happy ending

My mind's upended I am not pretending

It's time you heard my side of things

Tectonic moods and seismic swings

I'd tie you to a chair and make you look in my eyes

And ask which you think is the real disguise

And I hope it hurts and I hope you're scared

And I hope it burns and it's only fair

That you know that brought all this on yourself

That you know that you caused it, created this hell

That you know you deserve all this fear in your mind

That you suffer and are tortured cuz death is too kind

And demons will come and cut open your face

And you'll tear off your skin with your teeth to escape

For every time you squandered love to satisfy a draught

We'll break the hearts of one more person that you care about

Do you hear screaming? I hear screaming!

Do you hear screaming, am I still dreaming?

How come no one else can hear what I'm hearing?

Must be time to go disappearing

Lucid

2010-07-23T05:13:00.000-07:00

Charlotte dreams

Of movie scenes

Even when she's awake

She can't tell which is fake

While her back was turned

Justice was served

I could swear I was there

She did what the viewers

Wanted her to

And to hell with the consequence

And all shall weep for our hero

So colour in the blanks

Cover up the gaps

So let the strings swell

Let the theories all converge

In a dream world

Where our hero won't get hurt

The sum of a life on a circuit board

You sleep with the TV on

Curves And Corners

2010-07-19T14:54:00.000-07:00

Hooked up to a drip

Can't help but sip

The dirty nutrients

They feed my deviance

Get out of the corner of my eye

Stop firing the patterns round my mind

Some are real and some are made of light

Which one you are I can not decide

Love can be like a guillotine

A box of smoke particles

I'm going crazy I am going crazy now

One thing I know

I fear the window

It knows too much

And dares me to touch

Get out of the corner of my eye

Stop firing the patterns round my mind

Some are real and some are made of light

Which one you are I can not decide

No one believes me but I've seen it with my own eyes

Love can be like a guillotine

A box of smoke particles

I'm going crazy I am going crazy now

My daughter is alive

A product of deep-mind

Big Plans For The Dead Man

2010-05-18T01:22:00.000-07:00

Tell me will the questions ever stop?

Tell me will the hunt ever give up?

So transfixed by wall-clock-ticks we wait

Pressure builds while time's fresh kills are made

You were a witness to a descent

A broken vase and a hole in the head

Such a waste of loving plans

Big plans for the dead man

The pavement cracks don't mean you any harm either

Big plans for the dead man

Who can't relax while there's still so much he hasn't done

Tell me will the questions ever stop?

Tell me will the hunt ever give up?

So transfixed by wall-clock-ticks we wait

Pressure builds while time's fresh kills are made

You made an enemy of the world

You got exactly what you deserved

Such a waste of loving plans

Big plans for the dead man

Who bent the facts 'til they settled into his vision

Big plans for the dead man

Who daren't subtract all the losses from decisions

Tied To A Time

2010-05-11T01:22:00.000-07:00

Seek and destroy

Search and discover

Such a beautiful

Way to get hurt

What did you learn?

So much for the dream

We had when we were young

To be some one

Angels running

Running for cover

While we wait for

Jesus to return

What did you learn?

So much for the dream

We had when we were young

To be some one

I know, I know, we're short on time

Just show, just show me someone who's satisfied

Remember the belief

We had when we were young?

The curse of the dream

We had when we were young

Blissful

2010-05-11T01:17:00.000-07:00

And so did it come to pass that light forgot light

And drifted around the frontiers of sight

With a bemused look on its face as if to say

Why was I made this way if this contrasts some holy intention?

And why keep it just in range with promises to behave

Why not simply discard and erase and start again?

Confusion can be so much worse than pain

It's the cruelest of all divine inventions

So inevitably it set its own goals and it focused on those

It lined the roads with lights and wires and fireworks

And whatever it could to disguise the great problem

With hundreds of lesser ones

And then it whiled away its time out on the precipice of life

Like a dot looking only to its sides and filling up its life

With the fashions of the moment and this restlessness that no one

Could quite put their finger on

And in a dream

A prophet said to me

"Hell is revelation

Heaven is ignorance"

Memory Made

2010-05-03T11:40:00.000-07:00

Memory made a superhero of you

How I long to erase that twisted memory of you

It's no comfort to hear it's in my head

No it's no comfort to hear it makes no sense

I take the blame like it's a great disaster

And I while away my tuneful ever after

It's no comfort to hear it's in my head

No it's no comfort to hear it makes no sense

Everything's changed, nothing has come to pass

I still remain right where you saw me last

I want to rescue you

How you have changed, drifted away from me

Still I remain lost in a memory

Planes

2010-01-12T11:26:00.000-08:00

A stranger took my mind

Stitched wings onto its sides

I tore them on barbed wire

I had no interest in flight

Masters of disguise

Natural born liars

So sayeth the light

Planes fall out of the sky

And there's nothing I can do

Hospital

2010-01-07T11:33:00.000-08:00

Now we twist the knife

Claim another life

Now we cut the cord

Claim another reward

So tell me how are you?

Suggest how you'd subdue

The passionless bite of an organised killer

But you can't be blamed for the taste in your brain

This is how you're made, how you face each day

That's why we arm ourselves

I tell you something terrible is coming

Innocence succumbing

To the wires twisted round its veins

One instant bullet bolt of lightning

One second redefining

All you thought you knew about pain

You will be dead before you even

Have a chance to scream and

Recognise a killer's face

And lay there bleeding from a shell

Ejected from your cell

And nevermore set foot in this place

But you can't be blamed for the taste in your brain

Welcome to my cave, this is how I face each day

That's why we arm ourselves

That's why we harm ourselves

That's why we arm ourselves

That's why we harm ourselves

Welcome to my cave

There is no escape

What madness awakes

Will crush your skull

And tear out your lungs

Contraband

2009-09-28T16:23:00.000-07:00

Dig a, dig a, dig, dig a hole in sand
Give me, give me, give me your healing hands
Be your, be your, I'll be your perfect man
Pick me, pick me, pick me from all your fans
Help me out please

Be there, be there, be there at your command
Love you, love you, my love is contraband
Miss you, miss you, I must misunderstand
So pick me, pick me, pick me from all your fans
Help me out please

Just give me one word
And I'll be round in a flash
Cuz you are the sweetest virus
You are the prettiest spider
And I cannot contain you

Sooner or later I'll forget you
I've tried so hard to forget you

When You Loved Me

2009-06-02T13:04:00.001-07:00

I break my own heart every day
I tape your photographs all over my brain
This year has been a tunnel, what difference is a day?

What a difference in a garden when you loved me
What a difference in a journey when you loved me
What a difference even in absence when you loved me

Why can't I wake? Why can't I wake?
I can see myself but can't snap out of it

Thou shalt not love the traitor
Thou shalt not love the traitor
Thou shalt not love the traitor
Thou shalt not love the traitor
Thou shalt not love the traitor
Thou shalt not love the traitor
Thou shalt not love the traitor
Thou shalt not love the traitor

What a difference in a garden when you loved me
What a difference in a journey when you loved me
What a difference even in absence when you loved me
When you loved me, when you loved me

The Button

2009-06-02T13:02:00.000-07:00

Keep pushing the button
Let it explode
Glaze your eyes
And feel it explode

Like a rat on crack
In a laboratory
Keep pushing the button
For the drip feed

It rattles your bones
Your pulse pushes faster
Push the button
For a natural disaster

Keep pushing the button
And put me to sleep
Let me have my bliss
And never wake me

Cells And Decibels

2009-06-02T13:00:00.000-07:00

We make our entrance in a thunder cavern
Just trying to frost up the windows before the sun returns
The less light the better
We could be one of a hundred people who never seem to learn

All I could hear was heroin in my head
I never meant... I never meant

I need an LCD distraction
And a sheet over a mirror
As long as the bricks remain around us
No need to panic, no need to focus

F Dream

2009-06-02T12:58:00.000-07:00

Dried up in a brick enclosure
Sit still like the animals
The ones that know there's no escaping
And tick tick tick away

older and wiser now
With an F dream
Strapped down like an animal
Whisper and hallucinate

So, so sleepy...

Tin Box

2009-06-02T12:55:00.000-07:00

You are what, a hundred miles away?
Yet you're stored
And stretched on threads
From a core
In a drawer of fabric pens and watch straps
Cassette players and battery packs
And all the scraps you can't throw out
Because memory made them far too bright
And full of perfect promise
Everything you tried to write
Curled up in a plastic box of gifts
All the things you can't throw out
You can't condemn them to transience

Way, Way Out On The Border

2009-03-10T11:03:00.000-07:00

God the silence stings
And my focus loops
Round a map of actions
God give me a switch

What do you want me to say?
I'm feeling better already
What do you want me to say?
Things get easier gradually
It's not worth the argument
So lock the door, let the phone flash
You let your friends down

God the mystery kills
There are too many doors
And not enough locks
God give me a switch

What do you want me to say?
Honestly, I'm doing fine
What do you want me to say?
Things just get easier with time
It's not worth the argument
So lock the door, let the phone flash
You let your friends down

I am still in love
I hate myself for it
No restraint no control
God give me a switch

What do you want me to say?
I'll say it
You push everybody away
We all care so much
But way, way out on the border
Get so tired of clinging
So tired of clinging
So tired of clinging

Dalmation Parade

2009-03-09T11:26:00.000-07:00

God turned to gold everything that I touched and I wanted as much
But I no longer know how to pray
God gave me silver to travel the earth, to rise up from the dirt
But I no longer know how to pray

Thanks for the sunlight
Thanks for your family and your friends
Love to your enemies
Pray that none of them ever feel this way

God showed me paths that would keep me from harm, gave me riches and charm
But I no longer know how to pray
God gave me wisdom to watch from above, to believe and to love
But I no longer know how to pray

Thanks for the sunlight
Thanks for your family and your friends
Love to your enemies
Pray that none of them ever feel this way

God made me question God made me a liar, gave me greed and desire
And I no longer know how to pray
God gave me love, gave me heat in my head, gave me guilt and regret
And I no longer know how to pray

I give thanks for the sunlight
I give thanks for my family and my friends
Love to my enemies
Pray that none of you ever feel this way

From My Senses

2009-02-04T08:41:00.000-08:00

Can't breathe for the dust
Can't believe it's just the two of us
Can't seem to please
Can't see the woods for the trees

I won't look away
I don't have anything to say
I stepped across the line
I stopped praying for a sign

But the tempest in my mind
Doth from my senses take all feeling
Love is blind and lovers cannot see

I lost the will to live
I'd got so much more to give
I'm not going to move
I've got so much more to prove

Can't think how to help
Can't you just do it by yourself
Can't blink, it hurts my eyes
Can't drink, it only makes me cry

But the tempest in my mind
Doth from my senses take all feeling
Love is blind and lovers cannot see

You took it in your stride
You look like you are screaming inside
You stamp out your feelings
You can't come down from ceiling

But the tempest in my mind
Doth from my senses take all feeling
Love is blind and lovers cannot see

I want simplicity
I need a love like electricity
I drop off the map
I want to sleep til you come back

Straw Dogs

2009-02-03T09:57:00.000-08:00

We skipped a beat
We don’t want to be
Holed up in a golden picture frame

The lover’s dream
Doomed to a cemetery
Locked inside our selfish pride we lie

Just like the last time
We learned some fast rhymes
Like when the straw dogs come
They will bite someone
So take flight my son
Run away

We don’t like this
Open space
Where are our rules to break?

Just like the first time
We learned a cursed rhyme
When the straw dogs feed
They will make you bleed
So my son take heed
Run away

Pretty Scars

2009-01-01T09:39:00.000-08:00

Jenny wakes up with her face pressed to the mess
Sill wearing make up and her dress
Spread eagled out on the floor
The only comfort that she's got is a kaleidoscope
Of bottles bending lights around
Her hall of vacant thoughts

Jenny gets up to a world in black and white
Declaring this the final time
Repeating never, never again
Such a simple thing it lends itself to sympathy
But this is not a movie screen
This is a project

Jenny fall in love with anyone you see
Joy and despair are a perfect pair
Come on transport me

You have such pretty scars
Such pretty scars

Jenny hears the constant traffic on the road
Feels like her head'll soon explode
Just got to get out of here
To somewhere to ponder her desire to survive
And wonder what keeps her alive
When all around is crumbling

Jenny thinks if she relents
For just a fraction of a second
The reaction will affect everything
And so she searches for the singular distraction
That will conquer and will capture
Any fleeting honesty

Jenny fall in love with anyone you see
Joy and despair are a perfect pair
Come on transport me

You have such pretty scars
Such pretty scars

Jenny talks and all the people sit and listen
And they tell her that and this
And they all know what's best for her
She replies this is my project my horizon
And I'll chase it til I die
Because I don't know anything else

You have such pretty scars
Such pretty scars

Drop Dead Girl

2008-12-08T15:11:00.000-08:00

He had a drop dead girl
And he poisoned her
No one in the world believed her
The symbols of all evil

She had a face from a fairytale
And she had a grace unparalleled
But no one in the world believed her
So she took a spike and a needle

And she drove them into his spine
He stumbled back in time
Singing only the psychopaths aren't stupid
Boy you've got a gift you'd better fucking use it

Whatever you do don't shut your eyes
You'll see the pictures of a dead man's bride
Of a spectre scorned when she'll realise
And she's striking you down, down from all sides

He was a simple man
If he saw a spark he ran
He'd chase after it for miles
Get a grip and cling for a while

Until one day the spark exploded
And his self-belief eroded
The final page in a drop dead thesis
Told of a foolish spark lover in pieces

Whatever you do don't shut your eyes
You'll see the pictures of a dead man's bride
Of a spectre scorned when she'll realise
And she's striking you down, down from all sides

That boy is one unbalanced kid
That boy is so damn talented
He should be reaping offers
But he's ripping his, ripping his, ripping his mind to shreds

Whatever you do don't shut your eyes
You'll see the pictures of a dead man's bride
Of a spectre scorned when she'll realise
And she's striking you down, down from all sides

Even If...

2008-10-29T12:10:00.000-07:00

I'm in a crumpled cardboard box somewhere
In a bedroom in a house that barely stands
Now the books on shelves are promises
And the cupboards wells of hollow emptied plans

And we don't even know who's guilty, just feel so tired
It takes so much out of you
And even though we hoped, we tried, we're left to reside
Oh it takes so much out of you

All the optimistic notions that
I could reinvent the fear, the facts, all fade
You see I could run and run and not look back
Or I could stay and face the tricks, the traps I laid

But either way is no real way to escape the fight
That just takes so much out of you
And even when there's no commitments left to decide
It still takes so much out of you

All of me is stored out of sight
Packed in boxes for another life
I don't know which direction I
Should be facing to recover myself

Because even if you move away the sting will not hide
It will take so much out of you
And even as you smile you feel it stirring inside
It just takes so much out of you

Sarah & The Multiverse

2008-10-26T10:05:00.001-07:00

I miss my dirty rave scene
The shuddering highs
Bricks fall the lights turn hazy
And we come alive

And we dance around the straps on the beds
And we dance around the polystyrene
And we dance to magic dust on the decks
And we dance we dance we dance to death

Sarah is spinning light webs
Loved and wide-eyed
She feels the beats like lightning
Strip her disguise

And we dance down the black corridors
And we dance with ghosts that break from our heads
And we dance against the dark padded walls
And we dance we dance we dance til we fall

Spin

2008-09-14T13:43:00.000-07:00

Flip for me, twist for me
Tell me I am not broken
Fighting with the dissonance
Is not a real problem
I am a warehouse of cables
Improperly stored
Sipping at colourful cocktails
And swiping at moths
Comforted by a store-bought
Robot with retina scans
I am badly connected
But I am not broken
Drip drip drip and erode
Flash, sparks, follow
A hole, a door, an avenue
Run, man, run!

Wrestling With A Wrecking Ball

2008-09-07T04:21:00.000-07:00

Hand prints in the dust
Tales link back to us
Hard truths yours to bear
Find youth in your despair

All of the stars align inside of her head
All of the answers hide despite her footsteps
All of her prophesying just lies to itself
She's the centre of a universe built for her

Jane stays a vapour trail
Pinned back on the rails
Life's scars carried around
Don't let them lock you out

I am wrestling with a wrecking ball
I am resting on my chemicals
I am wrestling with a wrecking ball

I am praying for a miracle
I am getting far too cynical
I am wrestling with a wrecking ball

So what does the crystal say?
Is that the only way?
She found herself a prince
And I've never seen her since

This is her one and only chance to step off the train
This is her one and only chance to bring me back again
This is her one and only chance to step off the train
This is my one and only chance to bring me back again

I am wrestling with a wrecking ball
I am wrestling with a wrecking ball

I Can't Believe The Things I Said

2008-09-07T04:19:00.000-07:00

Saturday was a better day, but there were no winners
I can’t believe the things I said
And anyway, I haven’t changed My feelings remain
I just can’t keep my hands away

You spent all your money on things that take the worry
You spent all your money on things that take the worry

So this is my new face, a hollow space, forged from the deepest fires
I can’t believe the things I said, or I could say

You spent all your money on things that take the worry
You spent all your money on things that take the worry away

It doesn’t make you feel like it used to but you still do it anyway
It doesn’t make you feel like it used to but you still do it anyway

Run

2008-09-07T04:18:00.000-07:00

What did I do wrong this time?
How can I still sleep at night?
When she is crying somewhere
On her own, we’re on our own
Everyone feels alone sometimes

I’m in a cave, which way is the light?
I must behave, cuz I’ll pay for these lies
And she is smiling to herself
All alone, put down the phone
Everyone needs to go home sometimes

You be the pretty one, I’ll be your pirate
I see the beast in you but you’re too scared to ride it
You’re such a sweet thing, you’re sting is silent
You bring the peace to it, I’ll bring the fire

I’ll be the dream that you never knew you had
I’ll be the scream in the screams that drive you mad
I’ll be the pilot fish, I’ll bring the rain
Run little pretty thing run, I will eat your simple life away

I’ll be the dream, I’ll be the one
I’ll be the thing that makes you go on
I’ll be your strength, I’ll keep you safe
I’ll be the one thing in your life that will never change

Songbirds Talking

2008-07-18T13:46:00.000-07:00

It opens up words like a flood my mind
Sugar-coated, softly spoken in rhymes
Time is running, always running to hide
To lead us on a failing compromise

I hear voices, songbirds talking
I make choices that change nothing

Just because I don't see the fuss don't mean
That it's not there and that I'm not scared of me
Don't despair, just tread carefully
Lose your senses, lose your mind and be free

I hear voices, songbirds talking
I make choices that change nothing

Could this be the moment?

A Holiday On Planet A

2008-07-17T02:14:00.000-07:00

I'm going to put the world in a box
And dance around it
I'm going to draw us in a bubble
Of love and of lust
And we'll be one together
And as one surrender

Fate has thrown us off a cliff
And we're together as we fall
Together as we shatter
The fragments are many and randomly scattered
And I am just a monkey
With no sense of repair

I'm on a different planet
Dazzled by a dark star
With time and consequence in a box
No more laws and no more models
No more hiding from each other
If only I could stop the box from opening again

Blood

2008-07-05T04:58:00.000-07:00

All the sorries in the world
Won't bring back my little girl
No tickets to the time of my life
Can undo that which has been done

And though you make me laugh
And though you make me smile

The blood is still on the floor
No matter how you tread around
The blood is still on the door
No matter how you play it down

I hauled a rock off you
And I can let it drop
And grind what is left of you
Into dirt where you belong
Cuz I really fell for you
And I paid the cost
I fought fought a war for you
And I was the one who lost

And though you make me laugh
And though you make me smile

The blood is still on the floor
No matter how you tread around
The blood is still on the door
No matter how you play it down
The blood is still on the floor
No matter how you tread around
The blood is still on the door
Forever stained with this mess you made

The Heat

2008-07-05T04:56:00.000-07:00

Sentence me, I deserve it
Promise me you'll never change your mind
Punish me until I learn
Jealousy is welling in your spines

I forget I forget all that I've learned
In the heat in the heat the heat of the urge

Terraform, stretch your nerves
Slavery, hips and curves, twists and turns
Don't tamper with the machine!

I forget I forget all that I've learned
In the heat in the heat the heat of the urge
I forget I forget all that I've learned
In the heat in the heat the heat of the urge

This City

2008-07-05T04:51:00.000-07:00

Despite all the charity this is a desolate place
Where dust and ash seep from the taps
And it mourns for its sense of self
And its sense in general

This suburb fell victim to a chemical spillage
Now it just murmurs from amongst its own rubble
Its poisoned bubble, just poised to give up the struggle

But this city is a light, a beacon
This city is alive and beating
All the scattered, smiling breathing
Cuz this city is alive

Out in the villages her stone walls are worn away
By acid rain, piece by piece they're ground down
And trampled back into life's cycle

This town was kicked and beaten
This town was bruised and bleeding
This town was a shadow, a shadow of Eden

Watch her stumble
Watch her turn
Watch her blurry-eyed attempts to learn

Now this city is a light, a beacon
This city is alive and beating
All the scattered, smiling breathing
Cuz this city is alive

Plagued By Conscience

2008-03-25T16:38:00.000-07:00

There was a wooden figurine in a grainy picture
A plasma flicker on a mountainside
And on a different cliff there were men with telescopes
They saw thae flicker but they couldn't hear the cries

With electric vines we pierce our veins
Shut our eyes and feel the chemical flow
Let our urges build and burst into flames
And torch this palace, scar our faces, break our bones

The wooden figurine has seen all that has happened
But like a prisoner it is sealed and taped
And like a gunshot it is drowned out by the euphoria
Of being plugged into space, into painful escape

There are predators out on the mountainside
But I can't stop poisoning myself
Scavengers snapping out of a blood-thirst frenzy
And the consequence of submission in the absence of help

You don't know when to stop
I don't know how to stop
Hyde

Red Hot Wires

2008-02-28T03:20:00.000-08:00

We are the cracks in the hull
We are the powder in the bones
We are the creaking in your skull
We are the static on the phone
We are the creep behind the door
We are the moaning in the pipes
We are the squeak beneath the floor
We are the flicker in the lights
We are the screach from next door
We are the ghost in your bed
We are the breach in the wall
We are the demon in your head

And we took our grid of red hot wires
We took it and pressed it against your eyes
Singing this is what you, this is what you, what you'll get

Trapped Messenger

2008-02-19T01:55:00.000-08:00

Somebody tell me what to say
My trapped messenger
You hear it huff, don't let it in
My trapped messenger

Haven't got a clue what's happening
All dark tunneling
And at the twist you crumble in
Water funneling

I got my implant, bulletproof glass to keep my mindstate here in this factory
I got my colourful magazines
Give me fast relief, give me prozac please, give me anything

I never asked for answering
You're not listening
Haven't got time for pondering
You're not listening

I got my implant, bulletproof glass to keep my mind asleep in this factory
I got my colourful magazines
Give me fast relief, give me prozac please, give me anything

I've got my dumbstruck legacy
My trapped messenger
A victim of society
My trapped messenger

I got my implant
I got my bulletproof glass

Treetops

2008-02-19T01:52:00.000-08:00

We all want understanding
To break the rocks
Not all our vision
Centred outside

We mistake our riches
Among the tops of trees
We come down intending
To conquer the seasons

We all want understanding
Our greatest curse
A thought to accompany
The rip, the crack, the stab

Where is your comfort?
Where did you come from?

Innovator he is basking in the thick glow of the risen fog, and as it covers up
Hidden data and the tracks in dirt, the eyes in the walls and the ears in the doors
Are gonna getcha
They're gonna getcha
They're gonna getcha

Good Morning Girlwonder / Are You Cold?

2008-02-02T08:38:00.000-08:00

Good morning girlwonder
What do you want me?
There is a sapphire shine
On my mind in view

Come into the light
Where do you want me to stand?
I am dirt in a dream
Sparkling clean are you

Because she'd fold for anybody's sake
Things fortold were never worth their weight/wait
One line jokes tell me how you've been
Are you cold?

Good god girlwonder
Why do you want me?
Still around
Calming down the sea

Because she'd fold for anybody's sake
Things fortold were never worth their weight/wait
One line jokes tell me how you've been
Are you cold?

Because she'd fold for anybody's sake
Things fortold were never worth their weight/wait
Are you cold? Do you ever lose control?

She's not like anybody
She's not like anybody else

The System

2007-12-14T04:43:00.000-08:00

He's so naive that she don't want to leave him now
Cuts round his eyes from the biggest surprise allowed

He says boy look what you've done to that girl
He says son look what you've changed her into
He says what contribution have you made to the world?
Look what you've changed into

The pictures come back from a reconstruction
Of a palace tragedy, he's so sad but he's
Got a strategy, a lost identity
He's not giving up on the illusion yet

And when the system fails everyone's gonna say
I saw the signs but no one would listen
Nobody's listening, nobody's listening
I'm so ashamed
So you swing and miss, delete all the memories
Powdered bliss, and poisonous remedies
Only this between me and the darkest place

And when the service fails you'll all still be upstairs
Racking your brains, hands through your hair
But nobody's listening, nobody's listening
Nobody's answering me
So you swing and miss, delete all the memories
Powdered bliss, and poisonous remedies
Only this between me and the darkest place
Make a change, a change from the negative
Take the pain, but pain's always relative
Feel the same as I did in the first place

I saw the signs but I read the lines and left
The bits between I didn't want to believe them.

(Alice) I Hate You

2007-12-14T04:38:00.000-08:00

I worry that you'll never trust again
Let yourself go to another life
I never saw you let your guard down
Even so I know that you still tried

She probably hates me now
There's a voice inside her
She probably hates me now
It tells her to hide, it says:

"You will pay for letting your guard down!
And you will pay for letting yourself feel loved!
And you will be pay for being a stupid girl
And thinking this is really going somewhere good!"

I worry that you'll never trust again
Let a stranger come inside your mind
Alice has got a real poet's streak
I bet she feels like tearing the paper off the walls sometimes

She probably hates me now
There's a voice inside her
She probably hates me now
It tells her she deserves it, says:

"You will pay for letting your guard down!
And you will pay for letting yourself feel loved!
And you will be pay for being a stupid girl
And thinking this is really going somewhere good!"

Alice I hate you, Alice I hate you
Alice I hate you sometimes
Alice I hate you, Alice I hate you
Alice I hate you, Alice I hate you
You make me...

The Preacher

2007-11-23T07:58:00.002-08:00

She’s been feeling so isolated lately
Life gets more complicated daily

If you’re unsure
Kids if you want to find out more

Listen to the preacher talk
Listen to the preacher sing
Listen to the preacher’s thoughts
Listen to the preacher tell you what to think

She’s been thinking she’s missing out on life’s fun
And everything just looks different now the light’s on

If you’re unsure
Wondering what’s the point of it all

Listen to the preacher talk
Listen to the preacher sing
Listen to the preacher’s thoughts
Listen to the preacher tell you what to think

If you’re unsure
Kids if you want to find out more

Listen to the preacher talk
Listen to the preacher sing
Listen to the preacher’s thoughtsListen to the preacher tell you what to think

Don't Believe It

2007-11-23T07:58:00.001-08:00

All the cities will combine
All the buildings will tower
All the egos will collide
All will run on sunlight power

We will all die of disease
We will all kill each other and our lovers
There will be no end to the suffering

All our lives will be organised
On single computer chips
And they will give us digital minds
All the world will be a grid-locked consciousness

We will all die of disease
We will all kill each other and our lovers
There will be no end to the misery

Don’t buy the pessimistic stories
Don’t buy the sensational warnings
Don’t lose hope

Dark Star

2007-11-23T07:57:00.001-08:00

Chasing the beautiful unknown
In a Cave
You shouldn’t push your luck
I am a fortunate one and I take it for granted
Telling the moment’s come and it’s gone
Gone astray
Last time I saw you was through a telescope lens

The pleasure, the pain
The loss, the gain
The guilt, the pride
The thrill, the ride

Out at sea, a flame burning
Bettering, bettering me
Always knew how to get to me
Always knew how to rescue me
Out of air, you can’t get no
Oxygen out there
Always knew how to get to me
Always knew how to rescue me

Eight months on and it’s at the forefront
Dark matter
Pulling me one way then the other
She takes a torch to my weakness
Energises, rectifies it

The pleasure, the pain
The loss, the gain
The head, the heart
The dark star

Out at sea, a flame burning
Bettering, bettering me
Always knew how to get to me
Always knew how to get me
Out of here, and to a dark star
Where the weaknesses disappear
Always knew what to say to me
Always knew how to rescue me

Confrontation

2007-11-23T07:56:00.000-08:00

Wait, just a minute, I’m almost spent
Tired final words that don’t make a dent
This is confrontation
This is who I am
This is confrontation

Your victory, your big surprise
Your crushed and humiliated eyes
That can’t quite find the words to say
Everything that’s happened in these last few days
It’s just too much to communicate

This is confrontation
This is who I am
This is confrontation

The thoughts at best so badly expressed
And all the confusion leads to wrong conclusions
The broken communication and complications
By the final stages nobody has a clue
Why anyone chose to do anything
So choose your sides, no surprises
Everyone goes to the side they’re close to
The side they’re supposed to, it’s an unwritten rule

This is confrontation
This is who I am
This is confrontation

Don’t feel the same but you can hate me
If you think it’ll help you, just think of yourself now
Think of all the moments I robbed you of

This is confrontation
This is who I am
This is confrontation
This is who I am

The Gallery

2007-11-23T07:55:00.000-08:00

I've been to the gallery but not told anyone
You'll never hear the truth from my lips but I'll sing you a song

When you're always looking over your shoulder
And you can't stop the motion it's been rolling far too long

I guess things turned out right for you
I guess things worked out fine for you
Despite all that you'd done

So I drift a life of paranoia on the bank of the River Styx
And I push away my only chance and stare deep into the abyss

Elliot's Song

2007-11-23T07:52:00.000-08:00

This is the ending that stops the kids crying
This is us clinging onto our ties
This is us forcing a moral to the story
This is the perfect time to theorise

A thousand miles away on an island
Singing Elliot’s song by the fireplace
Let it go, let it go to waste

This is a question I could not answer
This is us wondering what could have been
This is an era of endings getting nearer
This is a series I’m narrating

A thousand miles away on an island
Singing Elliot’s song by the fireplace
Let it go, let it go to waste
A thousand nights and days in a dream
Trying to synchronise two movie screens
Let it go, let it go, please let me in

So this is me watching Elliot on the TV
And this is me starting to realise
This is me losing my place in reality
This is me desperate to apologise

A thousand miles away on an island
Singing Elliot’s song by the fireplace
Let it go, let it go to waste
A thousand nights and days in a dream
Trying to synchronise two movie screens
Let it go, let it go, please let me sleep

This was the gesture I couldn’t think of
This was my island and she was the sea
This was me waiting for Elliot to forgive me
Because this is not how Elliot’s song should be

Repaired

2007-09-23T06:20:00.000-07:00

It was just as I thought it would be
Pinned pictures against the wall
A vapour trail haunts the hall

My perception was in between
My creation - a severed dream
And a love of life - something inspiring

And now I see her in the car
Instead of screaming out the dawn
Taking flame to the picture board

And it breaks the scenes I'd hoped for
As I try to stop myself assuming
Things I try to stop the self-consuming

Much dust has settled
But the cracks are not repaired

A spotlight chases
And it finds me unprepared

My heartbeat races
While I act like I'm not scared

Nothing is said, nothing is repaired.

Fill The Silence

2007-06-27T04:08:00.000-07:00

She's got a history
She's an apparition
(You rarely see the darkness)
She's a resolution
She's the one, left behind

In every bed I wake with her
A sentiment I can't desert
Fill the silence

And I am unsuspecting
Living a parallel life
With you my apparition
My resolution to the way
I left it behind

In every bed I wake with her
A sentiment I can't desert
Fill the silence
And every day I pray for her
But I can't say, can't say a word
Fill the silence

And as the scene sets
Can't help but focus on the regrets
A recurring dream
That never forgets
The piercing words that left us behind

In every bed I wake with her
A sentiment I can't desert
Fill the silence
And every day I pray for her
But I can't say, can't say a word
Fill the silence

Everything Has Gone Completely Wrong

2007-05-16T07:12:00.000-07:00

Now she won't say a word
Not that she ever said much
Now she just looks at me
Now she just stares blankly

So this is my one song for us
Everything has gone wrong for us

Now I cut the cord
Now I reap the reward
Now I twist the knife
Now I crush her life

So this is my one song for us
Everything has gone wrong for us

So what's the best way out of this?
How do I fight my way out of this?

This mess I have made - Only forgiveness will save you
This mess I have made - Only forgiveness will save you

Now everything
Now everything has gone wrong for us

For You To Read

2007-04-11T05:58:00.000-07:00

I never had time for the sad songs
About loved ones who were loved once
I never had time for the love songs
The dream girls who deceive us

But this is the only way I can say this
This is the only way

This is my only escape
This my lonely escape
This is my only escape
This my loneliest day

I don't want to sound like a poet
Don't take me too seriously
I only use these metaphors to keep you
From hearing my true feelings

But this is the only way I can say this
This is the only way

This is my only escape
This my lonely escape
This is my only escape
This my loneliest day

I just wrote the words I couldn't say
When I'm frustrated, full of self-hatred
I can't live up to my own standards
I set myself, I upset myself

(So carry on, struggle through, they don't know what you're going through, carry on like it's nothing new, you don't know how I miss you)

SeeThrough

2007-04-11T05:53:00.000-07:00

Forgive me all my wrongs
Forget the things I've done
Grant me this new start
An unslapable face
And unphasable patience
An unbreakable heart

You know I love you
You know I'm yours forever more
You know I'm see-through
You know I'm yours
Cuz I don't break down anymore - ohh

Where is my self-esteem?
Where is my dignity?
Worries my stupid dream
What if it's meant to be? now...

You know I love you
You know I'm yours forever more
You know I'm see-through
Cuz I don't break down anymore - ohh

You know I love you
You know I'm yours forever more
You know I'm see-through
You know I'm yours forever now
And I know your secrets
I know your innermost thoughts
You know you are see-through
You know I'm yours
Cuz I don't break down anymore - ohh

Fire

2007-03-19T07:29:00.001-07:00

I am the doubt in the trust
I am the might in the must
I am the lie in the truth
I am the shadow in the proof
I am the lock in the door
I am the punishment in the law
I am the loss in the gain
I am the pleasure in the pain
I am the chains in the mind
I am the flaw in the design
I am the dirt in the pure
I am the fear in the secure
I am the grudge in the pardon
I am the serpent in the garden
I am the panic in the plan
I am the suffering of man

You are the diamond in the dust
You are the love in the lust
You are the grace in the hate
You are the choice in the fate
You are the hope in the mess
You are the strength in the stress
You are the freedom in the restriction
You are the release from the addiction
You are the thought in the self
You are the worth in the wealth
You are the fight in the fear
You are the laughter in the tears
You are the clear in the far
You are the science in the stars
You are the music in the soul
You are the fire in the cold

Last Christmas

2007-03-19T07:28:00.002-07:00

This one goes out to the universe
It’s been a long time coming
This one goes out to the few of us
Who have learned to stop running

My room was warm, the door was shut
Inside the storms the cords were cut
And we set sail across the sea
For lands unveiled, unknown to me
Downstairs the party, the festive lights
The church bells started to ring at night

Of faith departed, faith still pending
Faith in heart and faith in spending
Faith in body, faith on hold
Faith in God and faith in gold

And in my twisted mind
they all just laughed at me
Last Christmas I was a tragedy
You rescued me
This one goes out to the timeless
Love we all have for our brothers
This one goes out to the scientist
And what he wants us to discover

And in my cell the strip lights shone
And in my hell they list my faults
They tell me I’m not fit for my life
They stab and try to twist the knife
Downstairs the party of pretence
It’s getting hard to get a sense

Of faith in science, faith in soul
Faith in liars and faith untold
Faith in health faith in the above
Faith in wealth and faith in love

And in my twisted mind
they all just laughed at me
Last Christmas I was a tragedy
You rescued me

My doctor says I need to rest
To take my gaze out of this mess
Mother says I need a holiday
To leave my troubles far away
The vicar tells me I need Christ
Everyone’s got their own advice
And everyone makes their little speeches
Everyone testifies, everyone preaches

Of faith in computers and faith in machines
Faith in consumerism, faith in our dreams
Faith in the cynical, faith in the mind
Faith in the miracles, faith in the signs
Faith in psychology, faith in behaviour
Faith in biology, faith in a saviour
Faith in science, faith in the above
Faith in liars and faith in love

Downstairs the party, precious words
Of faith imparted to the world
And I fell on my last resource
A faith in an eternal source

And in my twisted mind it just laughed at me
Last Christmas it rescued me

Good Isn't Good Enough

2007-03-19T07:28:00.001-07:00

Thinking of a river on a photograph
Somewhere I’ll never go again
Thinking of spending time away from you
Things were going too well

There’s always something wrong
There’s always someone

Thinking of life in a different city
Somewhere with no history
Thinking of life in someone else’s head
This one don’t feel right to me

There’s always something wrong
There’s always someone

So maybe I should go
Where no one knows me
Just throw myself in
And maybe I should get
Away from this place
Just change back my name

Cos there’s always something wrong
There’s always someone

I just want to feel the way you do
Somewhere I’ll never go again
And if I can’t change the past I’ll erase as much as I can
Because good isn’t good enough now

There’s always something wrong
There’s always someone

So maybe I should go
Where no one knows me
Just throw myself in
And maybe I should get
Away from this place
Just change back my name
And maybe I should go
Where no one knows me
Just throw myself in
And maybe I should get
Away from this place
Just change back my name

Cos there’s always something wrong
There’s always someone

Feed The Thrill

2007-03-19T07:27:00.002-07:00

Feed the thrill
Soak up the gain
Take the pill
Pills to kill the pain
They make you ill
They drive you insane
They break your will
They grant you the blame

You've been gone for so long, I've forgotten what you looked like

Feed the thrill
Feeding the gun crime
Shoot to kill
And fire at the first sign
Scale the hill
Walk while they climb
And keeping still
Find a place to hide

You've been gone for so long, I've forgotten what you looked like
You've been gone for so long, I've forgotten what you feel like

All I Have

2007-03-19T07:27:00.001-07:00

Wrap me up in a safety net

And all I do is laugh
Because I don't have the words to say
You are all I have
Sometimes it feels that way

A highway ends at a cliff edge
It's the only way out of the city
So we'll stay in the slow lane
We're not after your pity

And all I do is laugh
Because I don't have the words to say
You are all I have
Sometimes it feels that way

Nervous in front of the cameras
Becoming one of her bracelets
To remind her of precious moments
Where your eyes meet, your pulse starts racing

And all I do is laugh
Because I don't have the words to say
You are all I have
Sometimes it feels that way

Well you could be a sniper on a rooftop
Tranquilising my enemies
All the things you do for me
All the times you are there for me

And all I do is make you laugh
Because I don't have the words to say
You are all I have
Sometimes it feels that way

Happiness Is Mine

2007-03-19T07:23:00.000-07:00

I wish I knew what you think of me
I wish I knew what you'd say
I wish I knew how I could change this
I wish I could run away

It's 2 am, I'm almost home
Rain is coming down in sheets
And I'm freezing cold
And probably the last thing on your mind

But I will turn around, I will come back and find you
I will stay around as long as I have to
And if you're feeling down I won't leave your side
Because your happiness is mine

I wish I knew how to break out
Of this stupid fantasy
I wish I knew what I should say to you
To make you fall in love with me

My friend I haven't seen you in years
You're overshadowed by these dangerous tears
Though they're not for me, nothing to do with me

But I will turn around, I will come back and find you
I will stay around as long as I have to
And if you're feeling down I won't leave your side
Because your happiness is mine

I've been going out every night
And only thinking of you

But I will turn around, I will come back and find you
I will stay around as long as you want me to
I will calm you down when you feel like you can't cope with it all
I'd hit the ground without a second thought to break your fall
And if you're feeling down I won't leave your side
Because your happiness is mine

Our Last Few Hours

2007-03-19T07:22:00.001-07:00

Take your fire for yourselves
We don’t want to be warm
Keep your shelter for yourselves
We’re quite happy in the storm

Don’t you dare take this moment away from me

Because these are our last few hours
That we have together
And we don’t want anyone else in our way
These are our last few seconds
That we have together
And we don’t have anything else left to say

Don’t speak, just fall asleep with me

Warm glow hiding under the rain
Lose my senses to the dark
Don’t know if this will happen again
Soft beats of a lullaby heart

But don’t you dare take this moment away from me

Because these are our last few hours
That we have together
And we don’t want anyone else in our way
These are our last few seconds
That we have together
And we don’t have anything else left to say

Don’t speak, just fall asleep with me

You

2007-03-19T07:21:00.002-07:00

In my lonely escape room
I’m mixing drinks with words
Holed up under a full moon
Trying to forget the world
I fell in love and I tried to
Fight the feeling away
Told myself I don’t need you
And promised never to say

All I want to be with
All I want to see is
All I want to be with
All I want to see is

You

Every second since I left
In every second of calm
Every second in silence
My head is still in your arms

And all I’m thinking of is
All I really want is
All I’m thinking of is
All I really want is

You

All I want to be with
All I want to see is
All I think I need is
All I want to feel is

You

Don't Fight The Tide

2007-03-19T07:21:00.001-07:00

Creeping up on you like nightfall
Time is running out
How long until you click your fingers
And bring yourself down

Talk yourself into staying a little longer
Show your mind a magic trick
The world you inhabit six months ago
You could barely imagine it

Is it worth blowing your mind
For one last second of euphoria?
And I’ve heard a thousand times
And I’ve had a thousand one last times

Juliet you don’t remember be
Rereading every single word you wrote
Juliet you never noticed me
Clinging to the trellis as you shut the window

It’s surrounding you like water
And you find you don’t wanna swim
Because though you drown you’ve everything you wanted
To spend your last seconds with

Give you any excuse to hold her
It only takes a glance
You don’t need no drugs to fly
You don’t need no music too dance

But is it worth blowing your mind
For one last second of euphoria?
And I’ve heard a thousand times
And I’ve had a thousand one last times

Juliet you don’t remember be
Rereading every single word you wrote
Juliet you never noticed me
Clinging to the trellis as you shut the window

Stop Me!

2007-03-19T07:20:00.002-07:00

Between the cars, behind the bars,
Beneath the stars, inside your arms,
These days I’m losing track of what I want

Your moving hands, your far-fetched plans,
Your childish dance, your careless stance,
These days I’m losing track of what I want

One day I learned I was always telling you lies
And in return you always knew just how to make me cry

I’m pushing you as hard as I can
So I can see what you’ve got in defence
I am pushing you til you’ve got nothing left
I’m pushing you til you can’t help yourself

There’s no one I’d rather be beside
But it don’t feel right I think I’m frightened that
I’m losing the thing I really want

One day I’ll burn because I can’t keep waltzing through life
One day you’ll learn that you always knew just how to make me cry

I’m pushing you as hard as I can
So I can see what you’ve got in defence
I am pushing you til you’ve got nothing left
I’m pushing you til you can’t help yourself

So I said ooh ooh ooh someone stop me!

You’re still my problem that I try to hide from
And I can’t decide on who I take the side of
These days I can’t ever decide on who I want

So I said ooh ooh ooh someone stop me!

Ask Me

2007-03-19T07:20:00.001-07:00

We walk until we are soaking
She talks and everything’s ok
They stop the river flowing
They start the moonshine glowing
They hate the way you dress up
I love it when you mess up
They drink until they are stupid
You know that we can’t refuse it

He’s the one you check your emails for
You listen at the door
You delve a little deeper each time
He’s the one you feel yourself falling for
You delve a little deeper each time
You find yourselves together on the floor, on the floor

We sit beside a lightbulb
We reignite the cycle
Compliments like rainfall
Absence is so painful
Morning grass is glistening
Sing like nobody’s listening
He finds it hard to let go
And she don’t really wanna go home

He’s the one you check your emails for
You listen at the door
You delve a little deeper each time
He’s the one you feel yourself falling for
You delve a little deeper each time
You find yourselves together on the floor, on the floor

I’m in a fantasy cave and I don’t want to come inside
We’re in the most beautiful rain and we don’t want to come inside

He’s the one you check your emails for
You listen at the door
You delve a little deeper each time
He’s the one you feel yourself falling for
You delve a little deeper each time
You find yourselves together on the floor, on the floor

He’s the one, you feel it in your soul
Uh oh uh oh uh oh
He’s the one, you feel it in your soul
Uh oh uh oh uh oh

Mars And Back

2007-03-19T07:19:00.001-07:00

You found Saturn's rings out in the town
Took you months to make eye contact and now
You can't stop stargazing
With the sun in your eyes
You can't fall in love with it
You can't get enough of it, no

This thing will take you to Mars and back every 25 seconds
It don't need no fuel or batteries it runs on personal obsessional

Call me down! - Calm me down! - Before I go too far!
Call me down! - Calm me down! - Pull me out of the stars!
I'll find my way by torchlightAnd then I'm coming for you

That building was empty when I was last there
Now there's starlight walls and asteroids on the stairs
It's like a bed-time fairy tale
It's just the two of us
In a different universe

These sugar cubes will take your head and leave it out in orbit
Take me to your planet will you take me without warning

Call me down! - Calm me down! - Before I go too far!
Call me down! - Calm me down! - Pull me out of the stars!
I'll find my way by torchlight
And then I'm coming for youI'm coming for you

The Subway Incident

2007-03-19T07:18:00.001-07:00

Brainwashed trees seeming at ease and at home
Breathless grass bruised and braced for the drone
Brilliant lights with their communist eyes
Bristling toxins befriending the skies
Genuine smiles flickering into the dark
Joyless angels standing guard at the park
Jaded eyesight mistaken for art
Jittery twisted up thoughts pulled apart
Infamous scrawlings by insensitive minds
Inferior boredom intimidating the blind
Innocence humiliated and immobilised
Imprisoned the superior love jeopardised
Pacified panthers asleep on the lawn
Paralysed monsters slain by the dawn
Vitamin answers were shifted and torn
Supplement solutions washed up on the shore
The daughters of summer stood up hypnotised
Mechanical beasts still anaesthetised
Strapped in their beds they were mesmerised
Their freedom retracted and monopolised
It was a cloudless scene but the skies didn’t care
Where prosperous poisons polluted the air
And a million opinions would tussle and tear
While the sacred observers slept unaware
Startled and stirring pretending to see
Dispensing their superficial sympathy
The late night girls stood seductively
Luring the businessmen clutching their keys
Exhilarated youths staggered out on to the streets
Exiled minds with no face and no feet
Exploitative criminals lurked observing the herd
Exposing the weak and suppressing the word
Devoted extremists were haunting their homes
Infiltrating the pipes, the wires and the bones
Cultivating hate from concrete seeds
Scrambling over spikes while their spirits bleed
Calling down clouds of chaos to earth
Summoning storms of corruption to birth
Towering gargoyles loomed threateningly
Striking their silhouettes indefinitely
And all of a sudden the children had been misled
Found they’d been mistreated, mistrusted, mistaken for dead
And they spotted Charlotte stumbling alone
Dazed and dilated making her way back home
And one of them starts to shout down the mile
Baring his teeth with a venomous smile
Charlotte focuses ahead and quickens her pace
Calculating the distance back to her place
A gang of lost souls feeding on taunting the weak
A pack of hyenas haunting the streets
And they chase after Charlotte and they laugh at her cries
As Charlotte flees on with tears in her eyes
Breaking through pain barriers, her heartbeat thumping
Praying to no one, adrenaline pumping
But run as she does the shouts get clearer
And she can hear their footsteps getting nearer and nearer
And the predators sense blood, spurred on by her fear
She screams but there’s no one around her to hear
Tearing down streets, panicked and scared
She comes to a subway and scrambles down the stairs
They come thudding down behind her, she tries her best to run
But Charlotte just no longer has the strength to carry on
The hunters grab her shoulders and they throw her to the ground
Charlotte tries to free herself, screaming out loud
But pinned against the concrete her neck can feel a knife
And they tell her to kiss goodbye to her freedom and her life
Charlotte shuts her eyes, sees vipers flickering their tongues
Nocturnal demons squeezing the air from her lungs
And then a concerned voice from someone she can’t see
And a hand on her arm snaps her out of a dream
A man was walking back home late at night
He walked down a subway and in the orange light
He found a girl having a fit at the bottom the stairs
Hallucinating killers and screaming at thin air
He ran down the steps and trying to stay calm
He called for an ambulance and touched her on the arm
And Charlotte woke up gasping and panting from the chase
Frozen from the shock tears streaming down her face
And she waited with the man for the ambulance to arrive
Her knees and elbows bleeding and panic in her eyes
The paramedics rushed down the steps to where she lay
And carried her up spluttering that she needs to get away.

Good Intentions

2007-03-19T07:15:00.000-07:00

We stay up late and talk about nothing
We've found everything that's wrong with the world
And we're motivated at the very last second
We're of no use to anyone who wants anything getting done

But it'll be alright in the end I've got lots of time to stop and pretend
I'm heading for where I wanted to go and I'm not in as deep as someone else I know
She's up to her neck in the things she neglected the things she has wrecked
All the things to correct and sometimes it protects me from my own

My problems just go away

But it'll be alright in the end I've got lots of time to stop and pretend
I'm heading for where I intended to go and I'm not in as deep as someone else I know
She's up to her neck in the things she neglected the things she has wrecked
All the things to correct and sometimes it protects me from my own

Every cloud has a silver lining somewhere inside but I can't seem to find it
I need you to help me out of this crisis I'm sorry I never took your advice
But I'm doing my best to get out of this mess but I can't take the stress of this
Work without rest and I'll fail it unless you make it go away

Just

2007-03-19T07:14:00.003-07:00

Just says his prayers and falls asleep
Must gets inspired by the TV
Only has a face that launched a thousand missiles into space
Lonely gets replaced by pure envy

Just can't look how I want to look

Just says he needs to go to bed
Must gets a song stuck in his head
Only goes to leave but finds a final trick still up his sleeve
Lonely thinks of life beyond the thread

Just can't look how I want to look and I
Just can't feel how I want to feel

Just feels his conscience getting light
Must drops his morals from a height
Only's in a comfort zone and hiding from the outside world
Lonely knows he's written off his life

So blame it on the government
Blame it on yourself
Blame it on the worst thing in your life if that helps

"Nothing I ever do seems to go right"
"Shaken up I can't ever get to sleep"
"In the mirror my face just looks too white"
"I believe other people perceive me as a freak"
"My friends don't ever seem to miss me as much"
"Don't bother I only ever want to stay in"
"Because I could never look and just not touch"
"I find it so hard to forgive"

Just can't look how I want to look

"Depressed I'm insecure and unimpressed"
"And then I push the boat out until I'm lost"
"Until I got all this bullshit off my chest"
"Crossed out the lines I never meant to cross"
"I don't know how to live without my addictions"
"I'm not getting better just using up time"
"I'm a self obsessed self fulfilling prediction"
"Is it really worth my while"

Just can't look how I want to look and I
Just can't feel how I want to feel and I
Just can't see things how others see them and I
Just can't be who I want to be

She Can't Say No

2007-03-19T07:14:00.001-07:00

I remember a time when things came naturally to me
Now I just humour you and your sympathy
In reality you don’t see

There’s another girl at the bar
Laughing and forgetting her life so far

Because she just can’t say no
She just can’t say no

Well I’ve been out on a ledge
And things look different from up here
And I don’t see a down side
But I want to get off, I’ve seen enough

Because she hates this place
The thumping bass and lights in her face

But she just can’t say no
She just can’t say no

Someone’s shown her a shadow
Someone’s shown her a door
Someone’s trying to sell her
Happiness in liquid form

She’s seen a shadow
And she’s wrapped it round her tight
And she feels like a criminal
Because she’s found a friend to help her through the night

Cut

2007-03-19T07:13:00.004-07:00

I follow in the sandal prints that she left in the dirt
Replay the moments and they lead me to this place
She wrote a postcard and she left it somewhere here
In the mind of its finder now she'll never be erased

And she was never one to walk away from a fight
She was never one to say goodbye
But I guess she thinks nothing could be worse than this
And I guess she thinks nothing could hurt more than this
You'll be alright
You are the reason that I'm still alive

She used words that she cut from magazines
She took a marker pen and crossed out people's eyes
She found tranquility on a day just like these
Leaving nothing but a message and her disguise

And she was never one to just turn away with a lie
She was never one to pretend that everything will be alright
But I guess she thinks nothing could be worse than this
And I guess she thinks nothing could hurt more than this
You'll be alright
You are the reason that I'm still alive

And she was never one to walk away from a fight
She was never one to say goodbye
But I guess she thinks nothing could be worse than this
And I guess she thinks nothing could hurt more than this
You'll be alright
You are the reason that I'm still alive

I have no photographs or evidence she was ever here
But I found drawings and I know they were by her
She made a mark upon her wrist to warn me off
And all these things that still exist do so without her

Broken

2007-03-19T07:13:00.003-07:00

She’s waking up, she’s been asleep all these years
Lost in a delusion she is caught in the confusion
Now she’s confronting all of her fears
And she’s a beautiful girl but she’ll never know it
She’s a compulsive controller and it’s taking its toll on her
Though she’s trying so hard not to show it
Cos she wants it all or nothing

She said if I don’t think that I could get better
Then I don’t want to think at all

And I wonder how much more of this you can take
I wonder how much longer I can stay awake

I don’t remember going to bed last night
I’m hysterical God help you’ll need a miracle
I’m not cut out for this life
And she’s a beautiful girl but she’ll never know it

She said if I don’t think that I could be better
Then I don’t want to think at all

And I wonder how much more of this you can take
I wonder how much longer I can stay awake

I’m not moving on

She said everyday they tell me to concentrate
Everyday I have to fight it away
Well maybe I don’t really want it to go away
Because it’s all that’s left now that I recognise in me
So what if I should just die?
Rehabilitation’s killing me anyway
And I don’t want to be free
I just want you to save me

I wonder
Yeah

Breaking News

2007-03-19T07:13:00.001-07:00

I came down the stairs and heard TV laughter
As I put my headphones on and left the house
It was cold outside as I lost my forever after
And walked the journey home staring at the ground

No one understands you
And no one knows what’s wrong
No one can help you
Because no one knows where you’re coming from

All the stars were blocked behind the city glow
People still shouted and the clocks never stopped
The speed of sound couldn’t distract me from my zone
And now I feel like I’ve been trapped dragged then dropped

No one understands you
And no one knows what’s wrong
No one can help you
Because no one knows where you’re coming from

I was stone cold sober but I was stumbling like a drunk
I was stunned by the news
I never saw myself sinking just found that I’d sunk
And I got home to more TV laughter

No one understands you
And no one knows what’s wrong
No one can help you
Because no one knows where you’re coming from

You’re probably wondering why I’ve brought you here
You’re all my little secrets and I’m so sorry now

Eye Contact

2007-03-19T07:12:00.001-07:00

She’s with another girl
Of all the times I’ve said to her
I think this one’s gonna be the last
I’m gonna break her heart
We meet in the afternoon
We hardly speak and she barely moves
I’m gonna make her never forget this moment
The way she tore my friend apart

And I feel Charlotte all over me
And she says whatever she wants to me
And you’re so beautiful you just don’t know

She was words and now she lives
Too many moments I can’t just forgive
They wear plastic shirts and feathered curtains
And I don’t trust one word from anyone
So make her never forget this moment
I don’t believe one word from anyone

Cos I feel Charlotte all over me
And she says whatever she wants to me
And you’re so beautiful you just don’t know
Yeah I feel Charlotte all over me
And she says whatever she wants to me
And you’re so beautiful

I feel Charlotte all over me
And she says whatever she wants to me
And you’re so beautiful

She’s with another girl

A Girl With A Crush

2007-03-19T07:11:00.004-07:00

It’s 26 hours to Christmas, I’m dying of thirst
Feeling like a demon, finally dispersed
Because I’m not going back to that place with the others
There I’ve found every hiding place and still been discovered

Charlotte’s diary is a scrapbook of fragments like
“I think they assume I did it”
“‘We should make more time for each other’, it’s what she always says”

“But I’ve been lost in this boy”
“And until now life’s just been toys
That we’ve moved around, played and destroyed”
“And I’m only feeling now I can’t think”
“I’m frightened, blind and I need to see
If I’m to feel, and I can only see ten feet in front of me”

Cos I could never go back if things stay the same
But if I get through them these times might change
A boy with an addiction, a girl with a crush
A boy who only ever thinks of himself
I could never see them again

Silver slips from round the necks in the waiting room
Water drips from the ceiling with the sweat
And Ben holds his hands over one eye
Jamie sips from polystyrene tasting regret

And she says to him…

The Man Who Doesn't Laugh

2007-03-19T07:11:00.003-07:00

I’m trigger happy with my patience
Taking sedatives to stop the shaking
Priorities are changing daily
She’s indifferent to the head she’s breaking

He’s marrying the girl I can’t stop
Marrying the girl I can’t stop
Marrying the girl I can’t stop staring at

This man doesn’t laugh but he talks
Like a billboard with a logic complex
Crashes like a spirit in an avalanche
Lock him up in sound-proof perspex

Because he’s marrying the girl I can’t stop
Marrying the girl I can’t stop
Marrying the girl I can’t stop staring at
She glows in the dark

She’s hiding something behind those sunglasses
Shut out the world behind her stellar eyes
Her arrival coincides with his departure
Boarded up her face is galvanised

She doesn’t speak to them much these days
She no longer considers them friends
You’ll only ever see her with her hat and sunglasses on
They make her look twenty again

He’s marrying the girl
He’s marrying the girl
He’s marrying the girl

This song I sing for Charlotte’s friend
She looks even better now I think back
I’ve been conditioned eye contact’s a limit
She makes my head swim and my life retract

White Noise

2007-03-19T07:11:00.001-07:00

We’ve run out of ideas for you sir
A clean cut escalates into a blur
So what for the sake of our unity
They won’t stop they’ll take an opportunity
Top cats no longer in control
Mr man digs his way out of the hole
Face facts people just aren’t satisfied with their lives

We’ll dance in the streets with the crowds
We’ll liven the day with the sounds
Of violence and tears and sense of achievement
Sirens and shattering glass on the pavement
Because people just won’t stand for this
We want to be where the action is
White noise rushing through my veins
White boys and their monkey games

How could anyone be so cruel
Don’t look at me your fear is my fuel
I’ll pace up and down in my cage
This place a chance to vent all the rage
Still trying to reach me on the phone
Stop crying it’s not going to bring me home
I’m not alone a thousand of us greater than fire or stone

The Very Last Song

2007-03-19T07:10:00.005-07:00

Bats flicker in the moonlight Water strokes the shoreline The wind flutters the trees The sky melts through the freeze Your eyes are hypnotised Your mind slowly unwinds A distant clock tower chimes The tide slips out of time And the stars fly The rocks cradling your head The sands recording your tread So many satellites crawling So much starlight falling The black water’s surface gleams And the sound of drowning screams
And the glower of deafening dreams Overpowered by twinkling streams And the stars fly And the relentless sense of blood Becomes isolated by the flood The street-light glow disappears And the darkness hides your fears/tears Your clouded eyesight clears The calm waves soothe your ears And the silence fills your mind Sparks fall from the sky And the stars fly

Emma

2007-03-19T07:10:00.003-07:00

You can call but she won’t answer She won’t listen to you It’s not me, it’s you You can mirror her in every view She will never turn to you It’s not me, believe me Hello stranger, what’s your name? And aren’t you sick of these stupid games? She said “I don’t know what to think anymore… If I only had your words to say I think you’re right, I think I’m ok On my own, but now I’m not so sure…” And every night you can comfort her She will never come for you She’ll see right through you You can call all you want But she’s got better things to do Like being in a different room Hello stranger, what’s your name? And aren’t you sick of these stupid games? She said “I don’t know what to think anymore… If I only had your words to say I think I’m alright, I think I’m ok On my own, but now I’m not so sure…” All the people waiting on their own In the bars pretending to be on their phones All posing for praise they’ll never even hear Gangs of girls hiding themselves with their smoke Drunken lads telling racist jokes All laughing at the people they really fear And Emma and I pass like ghosts Through the flirting games, the subtle boasts, Their jealous eyes, their aggressive disguise, The assertive shouts, the sniggering doubts, And yet they talk so loud but they dissolve in the crowd With their stupid beliefs and their blatant relief When everybody agrees with their stupid decrees And their stupid delusions, and their total confusion, Their local trends, their so-called friends, Anything to conform, anything to offend, Criticise anything you won’t comprehend And when their evening finally comes to an end They come stumbling past us on their way back And when they hear me and Emma, they stop in their tracks Our psiren song takes and controls them A feeling comes, for a moment it holds them

September Nights

2007-03-19T07:10:00.001-07:00

The train leaves in an hour, There’s just enough time for one last goodbye, I sit with you’re memory under the streetlights I feel so confident, so tired, so missing something, so everyone in one I have no reason to step away from these people Feel so tired, so inspired, got to learn to stay inside myself I drink myself into somebody else who I don’t know and I can’t control Slowly getting used to it Where were you when I needed you most You were hiding inside can you hear me my friend Wait for the smoke to clear and listen to how stupid I sound, I know I should go home with you But I think I should stay, because it’s a change from the wait From the days of waiting for the world to come to me with an invitation Well who are you? Someone worth talking to? To save me from something I’m not sure I can cope with Because your best friend has a life to lead and your boyfriend has a love to leave It came from nowhere and the cold began to fade As the evening glows on she never stopped listening, He never stopped asking if I was alright Well you are beautiful people I wish I could be like I wish I could be with for the rest of my life Talk me through these September nights When you look at me like no one else could I remember what happiness feels like and lonely I would be Without one person in the world Who looks into a crowd of people and finds me

The Werewolf

2007-03-19T07:09:00.000-07:00

Falling but not going anywhere, Still rooted in the harsh, cold, Cruel, uncaring ground, Rock-hard beneath me. Falling, drowning but there's enough oxygen to support a pack of werewolves. Waves undulating within my mind, Tearing away the wall encasing of my intelligence. I don't want to do this! The room around me melts and spins, Receding and bursting into a kaleidoscope Of threatening, eyebright colours, Too much! Too saturated! Obligingly, they disappear To reveal the jewel-spangled Sky, in which my cruel destiny Is written by stars Bright as searing candle-flame. Chain metal and precious stones encircling me, Squirming and re-forming To create a cold, hard collar Mostly hidden by thickening fur Just as my skeleton Painfully readjusts. Raging, intense screams turn to screeches Splitting my ears’ enhanced sensitivity, Flattening against my stripped head. Green-gold reflective eyes, devoid Of any revealing emotion Gaze seductively, pensively, Into the oil-painted puddle Slopping on the edge of a rough asphalt road Growing steadily with every hammering raindrop Seeing water-streaked, darkened fur bristling, Ears perk, tail drops, hackles rise, A long, lonely cat-call rises into the forgotten night. The moon, cool, calm, serene, Steady luminescence Gazes down upon a drenched Creature of the night, Hissing and spitting At fate.

(Based on the poem Cousin To The Werewolf by Leah G. (Age: 16))

The Stars In The Summer Sky

2007-03-19T07:08:00.000-07:00

It’s been a long time since that day, She was sending no vibes I’ve been cold but I can’t complain I’ve been wasting her time She talks so unconventionally And likes to think she likes the same kind of stuff She’s thoughtless, but not intentionally A starless night is not enough A prison cell with walls of diagrams Capturing spirals of sparks Erasing her conscience into landscape paintings Converting her soul into charts Sometimes the world seems so still Sometimes you just can’t stop running Forever chasing a light Forever fleeing the night And never knowing what’s coming See your life as a graph A straight line away from your home See your life from the path See the dark woods you wish you had known

An afternoon to kill Sitting on a window sill Making yourself feel ill Crying in the sunshine Can’t stop but you keep trying You’ve got to make it this time The swimming pool, the gate, the square Don’t see your eyes, see your hair Only notice what you wear But it’s hard to hide without them there Another generation don’t care where you stare You’re so scared Love is just a friend you kiss
To focus on your emptiness Til there’s nothing left to notice

Forget it, it doesn’t matter The summer was spent alone Following a road into the mountains, Staying there hibernating In a cave secluded from the sun On the other side of the valley, On a blazing hillside, On razor sharp blades of grass, You built walls to protect yourselves Hypnotised, lost in each other So many people here are such bright stars And this year’s love is a shade She’s the only place your eyes can rest Cos so many people here are such bright starlight And she shields your eyes So many people here are such bright starlight She covers your eyes

The Waterfall

2007-03-19T07:07:00.005-07:00

Well we are alone for a moment
Asleep in our hours of dejection
She circles above
And I see her in your reflection

She is really here with me
And this river's dried to a stream
Through the noise of all my suffering
I won't hear her as she screams

I just feel I should say something
Are you still breathing out there?
Talk to me...

I miss her like I wished you
Would never leave me here
I will hide cos I won't hurt you
Let the music dry my tears

I just feel I should say something
Are you still breathing out there?
Oh, talk to me my leader, my reason
Listen to me you're love
I just feel I should say something
Are you still breathing out there?
Oh, talk to me my leader, my reason
Listen to me you're love
I just feel I should say something
Talk to me
Listen to me you're love

Losing Your Mind

2007-03-19T07:07:00.003-07:00

Is that all I am to you, just a great friend?
I guess you never looked at me that way
It's cool, you think of me more as a brother
Deep down you're thinking what I want you to say

You're all a bunch of...

You're lucky you have a reason to feel sad and lonely all the time
Cos otherwise you'd just be down about nothing and feeling you were losing your mind

I guess I'm love with someone too close for comfort
But don't tell anyone cos it's a secret
I'm singing for you, are you really listening?
Got a crush and it's so hard to keep it to myself

You're all a bunch of idiot's

She spells F.L.A.G. and he doesn't know what she does to me
She spells F.L.A.G. and he doesn't know what she does to me
She'll get no such sympathy from me
You're lucky you have a reason to feel sad and lonely all the time
Cos otherwise you'd just be down about nothing and feeling you were losing your mind
She spells F.L.A.G. and he doesn't know what she does to me
She'll get no such sympathy from me

Lyrics

Tomorrows

Running From Tornadoes

The Lake

Hide

Ghosting

Salt-Like-Space

Cave Music

Cortisol

Editorial

Squelettes

Fault

Tunnelling Of Years

The Lightning Fork

Perspex

Curves And Corners (*The Next Generation*)

Kate

Static

My Basement Game

All The King's Horses

Adieu

Here Comes The Orchestra

Lucid

Curves And Corners

Big Plans For The Dead Man

Tied To A Time

Blissful

Memory Made

Planes

Hospital

Contraband

When You Loved Me

The Button

Cells And Decibels

F Dream

Tin Box

Way, Way Out On The Border

Dalmation Parade

From My Senses

Straw Dogs

Pretty Scars

Drop Dead Girl

Even If...

Sarah & The Multiverse

Spin

Wrestling With A Wrecking Ball

I Can't Believe The Things I Said

Run

Songbirds Talking

A Holiday On Planet A

Blood

The Heat

This City

Plagued By Conscience

Red Hot Wires

Trapped Messenger

Treetops

Good Morning Girlwonder / Are You Cold?

The System

(Alice) I Hate You

The Preacher

Don't Believe It

Dark Star

Confrontation

The Gallery

Elliot's Song

Repaired

Fill The Silence

Everything Has Gone Completely Wrong

For You To Read

SeeThrough

Fire

Last Christmas

Good Isn't Good Enough

Feed The Thrill

All I Have

Happiness Is Mine

Our Last Few Hours

You

Don't Fight The Tide

Curves And Corners (The Next Generation)